Just Ten Days

Baby It Hurts

[[A/N]  Warning: A short chapter... by short as in its short so don't blame me]

He had decided to leave her alone yet again. Yet again he had decided all by himself what was right for them and what wasn't. Did he ever considered her as a part or what she thought was all right? he was actually doing it all because he was guilty of what all he did to her. He was  thinking that he would work everything out; heal her broken heart and then break it yet again; because it would help him feel less guilty? was all this because he wanted to repent on his mistakes?

"Gauri please listen to me" came his voice as he rushed to her trying to explain himself. 

"All of this was because you were feeling guilty, wasn't it?" she asked him with her eyes... accusing.

"What?" he asked perplexed. "It was all because you were feeling guilty that you hurt me. You were feeling bad because you never listened to me but the recorder. You felt bad when you heard that I was all alone. You felt sympathy toward me. You felt like it was all because if you and you made it your goal to heal me and get off that guilt" his eyes still on her

"And here I thought you actually were reciprocating my love. I thought that probably you, finally, started loving me. Like.... like.... like you loved me the way I love you"

"Even if I do Gauri... even if I start loving you... I will never be deserving for you" he neared her; held her though shoulders and placed his palm on her cheeks "you are one diamond; no matter how black your surroundings are; you always shine. And then there is me; all black all dark. You deserve to be placed in a place where you would be studded and praised. I, on the other hand, am just a closed surrounding; dark and lonely. I don't want you to be affected and get trapped in me; with me. You deserve better"

"So that's it... you never really loved me, did you?" she asked with tears shining in her eyes. He jerked his hands "dammit Gauri; it is not about love anymore. Me and you were bound on the trust that you had on me and the trust that I was never able to keep upon you. I have failed so many time; I have broken you so many times that I fear that I would break you"

he faced her; broken "main khudse darta hoon Gauri. Darta hoon ki main tumhe tod dunga".

"Aur aapko lagta hai; mujhe... hume chod ke jaane se aap hume bacha paayenge?" he nodded. "Theek hai" she wiped her tears as he looked at her "you are free. I free you from everything that I and you had. I set you free from every responsibility; every  commitment that you had towards me and my child. You are free to go anywhere you want to. We wont interrupt or stop you" she took a deep breath and walked off.

Omkara knew this was going to happen; but no matter how matter had he prepared himself for this day to come; he knew it will break him beyond repair and just like that; it did.

Annika heard it all. and she knew she had to tell her sister or else things would go out of hands.

"Gauri" Annika called her. "Ji jiji" she turned around. "Are you okay?" Gauri nodded. "You and Om..." she cuts in "we have decided our fate jiji. Its all said and done"

"Lekin Gauri.... You know he would give up without you. He had fought till now because it was you who he had in the end... Ab ladke bhi kya karega woh? If you're giving up on him, he would give up too..." Shivaay tried to explain.

"Wahi toh dekhna hai hume bade bhaiya. I want to see if he can fight for me or not. The fight this time is with his own self, his own pain, rejections... The fight is with the feeling that he can't be good for me which he has to prove to me. He has to fight bade bhaiya. And if he cannot..."

"If he cannot, what? If he cannot what Gauri?" Shivaay questioned.

"If he cannot then I will not stop him. He will be free to go wherever he wants in his life" she replied.

"Even if it breaks you both? Still you will let him walk away? Just like that?" Shivaay asked.

"I will... I will leave him" she replied and stepped out of the conversation ignoring Shivaay's multiple calls.

"I am sorry... I did all this... I told him to leave Shivaay. How bad of a sister I am? She loves him and I was too blind to see that. Gauri...." Annika said leaning to Shivaay's shoulders. "They had to face this Annika. You were just a medium. Gauri is right; Omkara has to face his demons; I or anyone of us; will never be able to help him if he decides to stay like this. He has to face this"

"Dadaa don't leave... Mat jaaiye please... I promise I will be a good girl" Anaya said with her hand pinching her neck softly, making a 'i swear' sign and tears spilling off her eyes. "Dadaa has to princess. Take care of your mom for dadaa will you? Be happy" he said trying not to cry in front of his child.

"Dadaa" Anaya ran after Omkara "please; don't go" he sat down in front of her on his knees. "I can't stay princess" he said; his voice hoarse. "I will tell maa to stop you. Aap dono phir se friendship kar lo please. Don't go dadaa... I love you" she hugged him; trying to make a death grip. He wrapped his hands around her "shhhh"

"Dadaa don't go" Anaya started crying when Omkara picked her up and caressed her. He handed her to Gauri. "Nooo" Anaya cried as Gauri held her in her arms as if she knew what would happen if this went on. As if she knew he won't come back again.

He took her hand in his "khayaal rakhna" he said as he started moving.

She again saw their hands slowly slipping off each other. Bit by bit. Little by little. And then in a snap they were seperated.

The last time, he returned because he had a reason, his guilt.

Will this time he return? When there is no reason, except for the fact that she knew he needed them?

Will Omkara Singh Oberoi ever be that selfish to not care about what would happen again just run back to his own little world? Will he do that?

So when I'm all choked up
But I can't find the words
Every time we say goodbye
Baby, it hurts
When the sun goes down
And the band won't play
I'll always remember us this way

He looked at the same picture he had of them... As a family and brushed off the tear drop. He was going... Too far to even let his darkness effect them.

But was he ready? Ready to leave everything that his live had depended upon since eternity? Will he ever be able to leave the reason he lived for? Will he ever be able to go away?

He didn't knew the answer of these question he just kept walking out like a zombie; a creature without life; without senses

Knowing just one thing that everything Omkara had has loved Gauri since when? he didn't know.