Kakashi x oc book two

Bonds

Hikari was sitting down with Tsunade under a tree. She had a cloth on her face.

"That was reckless and stupid" Tsunade said blankly

"..."

"You could of went blind"

"...."

"What good would you be to your comrades if you can't even see. Think about the people who love you if you won't think of yourself. How do you think kakashi would feel if-"

"I get it!"

Tsunade got up. "When your ready to stop being a baby come join us." She walked away.

Hikari was fine now, she used her hundred years healing. The real problem was her pride.

Blood still stained her face but she was trying to wipe it off.

Hikana walked over to her and sat down.

"Hey, how are you doing."

"I've been better. Today sucked."

"How come?"

Hikari fiddled with the bloody cloth "I just don't know what I'm supposed to be doing. I'm in this weird place where I feel like I've wasted my time but everyone always tells me I'm doing good. I guess I just feel like no matter what I do it's not right."

Hikana smiled at her "I feel ya. We are pretty similar. I guess everyone's purpose in life is to find your purpose and devote your life to it." She shrugged. "It's perfectly fine to not know where you're going. Just embrace where your at. Don't test where your at like it's just a transition period. There's nothing worse than looking back on your life and realizing you've wasted so many years ignoring what you already have. It's empty." She put a hand on Hikaris shoulder "we are in the same boat, I'm sure we will both find a way out of it."

Hikari smiled "yea, you're right. Where have you been all my life"

They both laughed.

Tsunade yelled from where everyone else was "ARE YOU DONE BEING A BABY!"

Hikari rolled her eyes and got up reaching a hand out for Hikana. She smiled, took it, and they walked back.

Kakashi looked up at her and smiled. Rin was healing his wounds and Tsunade was critiquing her.

"Are you feeling better?" Kushina asked

"Never been better. Would it be alright if I just go home though. I need a break from all this."

"Yea, you will be here tomorrow though right?"

She nodded at kushina and turned around to walk away.

"Wait up!" Seiko yelled "I need to talk to you"

Seiko walked and talked with her.

"I'm sorry for not reaching out, it was selfish of me"

Hikari didn't say anything.

"I was angry and I needed someone to blame. In a sick way I thought I was the only one really hurt by what happened. I'm sorry for not being there for you. You seemed to turn out alright though."

Hikari looked at her " it's alright. I forgave you a long time ago. I don't feel like talking about this right now I'm sorry."

Time skip to when Hikari gets home

She threw her holster on the ground along with her shoes. Today was not her day. Hikari just wanted to lay in her bed and die. Or atleast take a longggg nap.

But she didn't, she sat down on her floor and read her scrolls. It was so exhausting constantly battling with wanting to be strong for her friends and not wanting to be a ninja. She had no idea what she wanted to do. She didn't really know anything.

Kakashi knocked on her window and came in. He sat down next to her.

"Hey, you alright?"

She didn't say anything at first, but then he touched her hand with his and she couldn't keep it in anymore "I don't know what I'm supposed to do kakashi. I can't be what everyone wants, and it hurts. It hurts that I can't even be what I want. I'm not enough and I don't think I'll ever be enough, Or even close to enough. I'm just so tired of everything."

"What do you want to be?"

She thought about it for a second "I do want to be a ninja, but I don't think I'm doing it right. No matter what I do it's not enough for me. I wanna be happy with what I have. People always tell me how I'll figure it out eventually and all this motivational stuff. It helps for a few minutes, but it doesn't stay with me. I wanna be enough."

He looked down "Well I think you're enough. I'll tell you over and over and over until you believe it. You are enough Hikari, so incredibly enough. Stop telling yourself you aren't doing enough. Please just trust me that in this moment everything thing you do and will do is enough. You will get to where you need to be in your own time. Until then please be patient and kind to yourself. The only person who can help you is you, that's why nothing anyone does helps. There is nothing outside of yourself that can enable you to get better. I'll do whatever I need to do to be there for you while you figure this out just tell me what you need."

"What if I don't know what I need."

He scooted closer to her "that's alright too. We'll figure this out together alright."

She nodded