Kakashi x oc book two

Is that so?

Trigger ⚠️

Inside she was screaming at what he said, a happy scream. One of those wow is this really life happy screams. But she wouldn't let it be that easy, he had to prove it. She rested her head on one hand and smirked.

"Is that so?"

He smiled under his mask, "It is."

She smiled really big this time, "then you'll have to prove it, it's not gonna be easy." She sat up, moving her hair out of her face. "You still up for the challenge?".

He had a smug look on his face "I was born ready. Give me two months. I'll prove it to you and then some"

She laid down on her back, folding her arms behind her head smiling to herself. "Now, if you don't mine I'd like to catch some Z's. I'll see you later, okay?" She acted all cool and collected but on the inside she was already dead. But a good dead, ya dig? She's been waiting for this for so long. But, this was his punishment.

He got up and ran his hand threw her bangs and hair "if you need anything I'll be here as fast as I can"

She smiled and opened one eye "if I need anything I'll be there in a flash. I tagged you not too long ago. This time I'm using my head and it's staying there."

She did feel lonely when he was gone, but she didn't want him to think she was weak. Being so stubborn is a curse. Hikari was terrified after the event with Orochimaru, a part of her wanted to just disappear. A lot was going good for her but a large part of her was ruined forever. She's dealt with this before but never to that extent. She was still somewhat a virgin until Orochimaru.

She got up to take a shower, the sudden urge of needing to get every trace of him away hit her. She was in there for 2 hours. No matter how hard she tried she couldn't cry, her face only scrunched up as her body Trembled.

Her heart screamed for kakashi but her head said no. Being brave is hard work when your mind is caving in on itself.

When she got dressed flashes of memories came to her head. Him yanking her underwear off. Her not being able to breathe. His hands roaming her as he took every part of her innocence. She felt as if something died, like it was almost like she killed it. It was her fault. She could of done so much more. Realized the trap. Stop erasing the tags she puts on people, she could of used her jutsu to get away like the first time. Listen better when Tsunade explained to her the fundamentals of position resistance, fight, anything. Shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up. She felt rotten to the core, ruined, robbed, unclean.

She couldn't stop washing her hands, they were now becoming raw. The pain was her punishment.

No one would ever do that to her again, she would never experience that consent or not.

"Yes let me see your face"

Orochimaru commenting on her facial expressions she made makes her throw up. She is not on the floor, breath shallow and curled up into a ball.

She felt invalidated, mistreated, ugly.

Her mind was invaded by the thoughts again

All she wanted was for him to get off of her. She died. It was her fault. She could still hear his voice, smell the scent of sex. Her inner child was dead.

She blacked out. When she awoke it was in the middle of the night and she was in bed with a curled up kakashi on the chair. He reached out and touched him, he didn't wake up. She held his hand in silence, even without him being awake he comforted her. Why did he silence these thoughts.