By the time you read this, it'll be too late.
Not the first thing that popped into your head, probably, but... I'm about to break my promise. I still have the item I took.. the only problem is where.. and an excuse for it.
I feel so sick right now. And writing this makes me want to cry even more.
I'm underlining this because this is important and you won't be able to try or it'll make things worse with my family at the moment.
You CANNOT contact me. My phone's been taken away so telling you this is probably my only form of telling you anything for the next few days. I mean... I have ways we could still communicate but I don't think you would want to speak to me and if you did, I don't know if I really want to speak to anyone right now.
Oh God I'm breaking down writing this. I got told I disappointed certain people, and I snapped at my sister. This is what happens when someone's broken. The first chance I got when someone pissed me off, I just yelled. And in a way, I'm glad I did this to myself. Because I got some of it out.. but I also made myself feel even worse if that makes any sense.
I don't want to break my promise.. but I keep remembering that feeling of how it feels and... it feels like something I really want to do. And you can't really stop me since I have no way of being near my phone. My music isn't helping and I'm doing this from my computer. I'm sorry. I guess, all you can really do is be there when things calm down at my house.
Please don't scare me that I'm not there for you today, or tomorrow, or for awhile. I'm sorry.
