So I guess this is it. After everything I've been through with you, after everything WE'VE been through together, four days of not saying a word to you made me lose you. All because I was stupid. I destroy everything I touch, I told this when we first met. I told you I would apologize for everything I would do in the future. Well this is the future. This is the moment I told you would come. I warned you, being friends with me wasn't the smartest thing, and you became my BEST friend. I didn't want this to happen. But I don't really have a choice anymore. What's done is done. I can't fix this. All I can do is wait at the end of the tunnel with a sign with your name, holding my arms open for you, willing to forget everything that happened and not let this make us cry at night anymore. But, it's your choice whether you decide to hug me back, or let me stand there like a fool and not say a word.
It's been a day since the argument... and it hasn't gotten any easier. I saw you at school all day and it felt... weird. Like I was missing a part of myself and it was so close yet so far. It's hard not having you around. I have to turn to other people for help. It just... it's different. New. Bad. And it's my fault.
