You're name pops onto my screen and my heart drops.
A thousand pounds crush me.
I feel like I can't breathe.
I started crying.
But... I put on a smile.
And I continued the conversation.
I wish you loved me more than my sister...
Not cause I want to be special, I think.
But so that you won't want her.
So that you'll leave her alone and just torture me.
And make me cry.
And shake.
And have anxiety.
I don't know what to do.
And if anything happens to either of them... I don't know what I'll do to myself.
I can't freaking stop crying rn.
Ugh.
I just want it to stop.
Make it stop.
Please make it stop.
God, please make it stop...
I can't do this...
Someone help me.
