Dealing with the devil (Lauren/you)

Chapter 36

Lauren's point of view

"Lauren are you okay? Why are you not eating your food?" Mom asked as I just stare down at my food.

"I don't have appetite" I simply said, "is it y/n?" Dad asked well he knows me well. "she hasn't call or text yet".
"Give her a little space dear maybe she needs some time" mom said and dad just nod his head, time? Yeah right. "I'm going to bed" I said and stand up from my chair and make my way to my room, this isn't what I expected I thought she will at least text me or call me. Wait why do I even care anyways? I mean I just gave her this job cause she needs money and for Lucy and I to maybe get back together nothing else. I took a deep breath and just make my way to my room.

I throw myself on my bed and groaned as I try to not worry about her but it's no use. I can't calm myself unless she text or maybe call. I bring out my phone and check if there's any calls from her but none it's empty except for calls from office other friends and Lucy...I rolled my eyes when I saw her name on my calls log as much as I want to get back with her before I feel like I had a change of heart its just she turn out to be a bitch not like before when we we're together she was so sweet so caring that's why I hired Y/n to pretend to be my fake girlfriend because I can't stand without Lucy but now I don't know anymore.

I sat up and grab the box under my bed, it's where I kept my old stuffs, I like collecting and keeping stuffs from my childhoods it keeps the memories. I open it and starts looking on old things that I kept just to distract myself from thinking about y/n. I grabbed the notebook which was my notebook from highschool I wrote there everything that happens Everytime I'm at school it's pretty fun its like a diary to me I open it and read some of the old notes.

"Dear diary I don't know what to write" I chuckle as I read the very first thing that I wrote before on the first page it's like the first time I got this notebook and I'm like bring out pen but then I have no idea what should I write.

I flip the page and continue reading

"Dear diary I saw a beautiful girl today" well this one caught my eyes I don't really remember whose that girl I saw

"Dear diary I try to impress her but I end up being a mean, she looks cute when annoyed anyways" wow now I feel like it's talking about Y/n

"Dear diary it's confirmed that I have a crush on y/n"

"Okayyy that's it this Is enough revealing diary" I groan and slam the notebook shut.

Yes I do have crush on y/n but it was a past crush plus It was just a silly crush.

My mind: yup just a silly crush before and it's now gone

My heart: but you kissed her it wasn't a silly move was it?

My mind: I just got mad

My heart: then if you get pissed off you could've fucked her?

"Daaamnnn stop arghh" I yelled frustratedly my mind and heart isn't helping at all they're just distracting me more.

I sigh and continue looking at the box as I keep searching for old stuffs something caught my eye. I grab a lace and pull it out as it reveals an i.d

It's y/n's high school i.d

I smile as I study her face in the picture she looks so young here and weird and nerd.

She still got that pontytail with her glasses on and braces, I laugh remembering her face back then but now she's damn hot.

My smile fades when I feel it again.

That feeling

Of missing her.