"Oh" was all I could utter after her words. A long and awkward silence fell over us and I had no idea what to say next.
I couldn't get the image of Becca and another guy in her bed, out of my head. I felt incredibly selfish after all that she just told me, the one thing I could focus on, was her ex-boyfriend. I couldn't help but wonder how many guys Becca had been with. Every time the image popped up in my head, an uncomfortable and jealous feeling took over me. I didn't like the feeling at all.
"Yeah, well... enough about my tragic past. We came to study, right?" Becca broke the silence and stood up to grab her books.
I nodded as she sat back down on my bed with her back against the head board, and opened her books. I got my computer and sat down next to her and opened the files we were last working on, all though we hadn't really gotten any work done last time. Becca started to talk about something on the assignment that she couldn't quite understand, and I tried my best to focus on her words, but my mind was completely elsewhere.
"What do you think?" she asked and snapped me out of my thoughts about her past boyfriends. I just stared at her, debating whether I should ask her to repeat herself or ask her what I really wanted to know.
"Can I ask you something?" the words burst out of my mouth before my brain could even keep up. She gave me a look telling me that she was just about to say our famous "You just did" joke, and I laughed lightly.
"This ex-boyfriend you talked about. Who was he?" I asked and almost held my breath completely until she answered. Becca chuckled nervously and laid her books down beside her lab.
"He was no one special. His name was James. He was a tattoo artist" she answered. I honestly wasn't all that surprised she had dated a tattoo artist.
"We only dated for 2 months, until he cheated on me" she said. I could see a hint of pain in her eyes. "What a dickhead" I said and made Becca laugh.
"You're right about that" she shook her head and smiled slightly.
"How many ex boyfriends have you had?" I asked and for a second, I was afraid she was going to be offended by my question. But as soon as she started talking, I was reminded once again that Becca didn't really get offended by any of my questions, she was an open book.
"Four. But all of them were pricks" she said and scoffed.
"The first one was named Alex. We met when I was 13 and I dated him for about a year, I think. He was my first... you know, lover" she put it ever so delicately and again that jealous feeling popped up inside me. I tried my best to tell it to go away, but it didn't listen.
"He broke my heart when he broke up with me suddenly for no apparent reason. Then a week later I saw him in the school hall with another bitch on his arm... My second boyfriend was Tobias. He was kind of a rebound guy after Alex broke my heart. He changed his hair color every two weeks and wrote crappy poetry. All we ever did was watch movies and have sex. I didn't really feel I knew him" again that feeling popped up inside me. Even stronger this time.
"My third one was different. I mean he was different. Patrick. He was very normal looking; he didn't really have any friends and he was always kind of left out. Which is why I think I fell in love with him. We dated for a year and a half but in the end, he started to get more popular and he got more friends. He started to get kind of embarrassed to be around me at school. When people bullied me, he didn't do anything. It was like he didn't care. Eventually he broke up with me because, in his words, "We had drifted apart" ...but really it just meant that I was too different for him to keep his status" Becca continued telling me about her not so joyful past and my heart continued to ache for her. I had never met a person who had been through as much crap as Becca and somehow was still sane.
"The bullying just became worse at that school when he broke up with me. People yelled at me, pushed me and ruined my stuff. Eventually I had to transfer schools. A while after I then met James. He was 20 and worked at a tattoo store near the harbor. He was the one that gave me all these I have now. And as I said we dated for about 2 months and then he cheated on me with some basic bitch" Becca said and sighed. I could tell she was still affected about what had happened between her and this James.
"Wow. I can't believe you had to go through all that" I said. Becca looked up at me and smiled. "It's okay. I survived it" I smiled at her words.
"So, how many have you dated?" she suddenly asked and caught me off guard. I don't why I hadn't thought of the possibility of her asking me that question.
"Uhm... one" I said and let out a nervous breath. I fumbled with my fingers as I waited for her response.
"Oh... Tell me about her" Becca said, to my surprise.
"Her name was Lilly" I said and took a deep breath. I hadn't thought about Lilly in so long. Thinking back at our time gave me a weird feeling.
"She lived next door to us, when we moved here to the states when I was 13. I fell instantly in love with her and she with me. We were together for 3 years until she and her parents had to move because her dad got offered a good job in New York. We tried to do a long-distance thing, but it didn't work out" I said. I could sense Becca's eyes on me the whole time.
"Yeah well, parents tend to ruin the love stories quite often" Becca said, and I laughed.
"Well anyway. Why did you want to know about my ex's?" Becca asked after a moment of silence and looked at me. "I don't know. I just want to get to know you" I admitted and gave her a smile.
"Thank you for telling me all that before, about your dad... You didn't have to" I said and put my hand on hers.
"I wanted to. I trust you" she said in a low voice and rubbed her thumb in circles on my hand.
I smiled down at her. The urge to kiss her came over me again. I looked into her eyes and down her lips searching for a sign that it was okay for me to kiss her. But before I had the chance, she leaned forward and put her lips on mine first.
That same spark I felt yesterday filled up my body once again. Only this time it was a lot stronger, even though I didn't think that was possible. She climbed on my lab and I ran my hands from her face to her waist and held her close to me while our lips moved in sync.
Her hands were on my neck and I moved my lips to her neck kissing it softly. She moaned ever so softly and that spark inside me turned to a fire. I shifted us in one quick move so that she was under me while my lips were still on her neck. She softly moaned my name as I continued to kiss her all over her lips and neck.
"I want you" she softly whispered in my ear and I felt like I could explode. I moved my hands under her shirt and helped get it off her. She threw it aside and placed her hands on the back of my neck again to kiss me even deeper. I continued running my hand over her exposed upper body, when suddenly I heard my door open and the last voice in the world I wanted to hear right now, said my name.
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