Wait [third book to n.s.]

follow up

hey guys,

i'm sorry this isn't an update again omg. it's just that most of you have been asking for a follow-up on my aidan situation.

if you've been messaging me (which some of you have which is totally sweet) you already know that we're okay.

i don't exactly know what's going through his head yet, and i'm still looking for the answers i need. although my questions are unanswered i'm waiting until we get our relationship back on track.

now i know you all are probably going to be like 'why are you crawling back to him?' and stuff. my friends have been too. i know it isn't the right thing to do considering how he treated me, but in a way i understand what occurred.

everybody gets scared. although what he did was wrong (and he does know what he did was wrong; my friend confronted him by text behind my back. he does know what he failed to do) i can forgive it. but it's not over. one day i am going to ask what was going through his mind.

something else i have to clear up; do i cut often? no. i'm not suicidal nor have i ever really been. it started in 7th grade and ended in 9th grade. although my state of depression lasted two years, i have not cut in a year in a half (not counting recently).

so, i am okay. aidan and i have discussed it. although my romantic feelings were mentioned (oops my bad aha) we're still the best of friends.

so that was for everyone concerned.

wow people are concerned about me lol.

there's a 90% chance i'm updating tonight and a 80% chance of me updating tomorrow (america).

i have a narry date coming i promise i've kept them separated too long.