temporary | d.s.

14 - the extra time

This first week of back to hell was literally hell and I'm glad it's over. I still haven't talked to Dani since that ridw and we barely talked. I miss him. I could just call him but I tried. All went to voice mail and I didn't even know what I did to make him mad. I hope he's at the party so I can talk to him in person. Yes, Zach is hosting another party this weekend and I'm invited. Maybe parties can be my scene and being with Zach will definitely make me feel normal at a party. I will not drink as much though because we already saw what that turned out and it's hell.

"Oh, it's Daisy again. Zach your girl!" Corbyn said and I really want to slap him for that name but I'm really taken aback by him calling me Zach's girl.

Zach greeted me and hugged me with a kiss on the forehead. Now that's a way to swoop a girl on her feet.

"Stay here." Zach seated me at the living room on the second floor of their house away from the crowd. "I don't want other guys oogling their eyes at you."

I laughed at his remark and I can't help but blush. He kissed the top of my head. "I'll be back."

I forgot to mention that the couch is composed of different people. Faces that's popular at school and I feel uncomfortable with them. I mean who wouldn't? They're the kind of people that I usually don't talk to school even if my best friend and soon to be man are friends with them.

"Look who showed up." Zach said entering his circle and behind him was Dani. He looked silent and just bid 'hey' to his friends. He didn't even looked at me. What is his problem?

He seated himself beside that skank that he just broken up with weeks ago. Zach seated himself beside me while putting a hand on my thigh and it feels so cold. His hands are cold. Not really fulfilling the books that I've read. I looked over at Dani who is really comfortable beside his ex girl. They just broke up and now they look like they're gonna switch each other's eyes off.

"Hey let's go to my room." Zach said and I obliged. I really don't want to be in this circle right now. People I don't know and person I used to know.

We entered his room and he suddenly pulled me in and kissed me. It was a sloppy kiss and I can taste the alcohol that he'd just drank a while ago and I don't like it. This kiss was far from what I imagined to be my first kiss so I pushed him away.

"Why? What's the problem?" He asked clearly confused.

"I told you that I want to take this slow." I said.

"We were just kissing."

"Yeah and that's what couples do and we aren't." I reasoned and even if I like him, I would not just jump into him.

"You know you have a problem!" He exclamed. "You said only couples kiss and when I asked you to be mine you rejected it. The problem is that you want something but you are afraid to try it or even admit it. I don't know what's holding you back because you just said it yourself that you like me but you don't want to be with me. You're confusing me." He said and he's right. I don't know what's wrong with me, this is all new to me and I felt overwhelmed with all this.

"I know-"

"Well fix yourself first before you claim to like anyone." He exclamed and exited his room.

I am on the verge of crying right now but I don't want to show it. I exited his room and guess what I found. Zach and this whore, the same bitch that Daniel's oogling, Allisa, was playing a game of 'who can reach the throat first' and I am disgusted. Mostly hurt.

I rushed downstairs, tears already trickling in my eyes ready to fall but not here. I bumped into a guy, a very familiar guy. A guy close to my heart. Can the universe be more against to me?

"Hey. Are you ok?" He said and that's all it takes to make all my tears pour.