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41 - i know you know that

It was really surprising and it's a bummer and a riff off that Dani didn't get to win. I hold his hand the tightest then I looked at him. He looks defeated and disappointed. "Hey, it's ok. There's a lot more things you can do and this is probably a riff off. You totally did great." I tried to cheer him up but he let go of my hand and walked away. I tried to chase him to his car and luckily, he hasn't left yet. I pick up my pace and got to Dani's car. He was there, screaming. Mad at himself. I opened it and slide in but he went silent.

"It's ok alright. I know he's proud of you and you did great." I tried to cheer him up.

"You don't know anything." He glared at me and I don't like this Daniel.

"I know this means so much to you but you have to accept it." I reasoned. "There's a lot more to opportunities that will come and I know that you'll do great at them."

"What do you know?" He raised his voice. "Because I know you're not the one who felt so small when his brothers are accomplishing they're dreams. In the eyes of their father, he was always the weakest link."

"Daniel, your father is so proud of you just by having you as his son. You don't have to prove anything to be proud at. For them, you being an amazing singer is enough to make them proud." I convinced him.

"What do you even know?" He asked. "You're always the perfect child who gets perfect grades unlike me, I'm just Daniel who sucks at everything."

"No, I know that you are a great person. You've treated me right and you've treated your family right. I saw that you are a great sibling and a great son." I reasoned because he was really down right now. He needs pushing because him not achieving this took a toll on him.

"I'm not a great son." He laughed and shook his head. "How do you even know I'm a great son and my father is proud of me if you don't know what a father would feel like?"

I am really offended in what he said and I am in shock that he really have to say that. "Daniel you don't want to go there."

"Why not? I thought you know everything. You're just saying what you want because you pitty me." He slurred. "Before you say I'm a great son, fix your drunkee of a father first then you'll fail at everything then you can tell me if your dad is proud of you."

"You know what? I don't even know why I'm still pushing you up if you kept weighing yourself down. And now you mentioned my father, you've really pushed it." I yelled in all anger. "I tried to cheer you up because you really deserve it, with or without the win you're still a winner to me and your father. I understand that you're disappointed at yourself because of that fucking competition but there's nowhere in hell that you should bring up my father because you don't know what it's like to not have one. You're lucky that you have yours but you're too damn busy to prove yourself to boost your ego when all you have to do is to be a good son. I don't think that you're great anymore."

I exited his car and slammed it at him. Luckily, there's still a little sun left so I runned to our house and locked myself in my room. My mom greeted me but I'm too fucked up to answer. All my tears poured after I slammed the door shut. If this is what I get for trying to make him feel better, then I shouldn't have. Why did I even try to convince a hard headed person?

I am debating if I would still go to school looking like a zombie. I've cried my eyes out last night and it's still evident in my eyes. If it isn't for a report that is due today, I would stay at home. It took a ton of man power to even wake myself up and now, I have to cycle to school because I don't feel like I would have a ride today. Cycling to school? I shouldn't complain because I've been doing this sometimes so what's the problem with it? I should just suck it up and went to school which I already did and almost be late which will be new to my record.

The day has been normal if normal was without Dani. I am on my way to the cafeteria and it's back to alone table again. I started to eat my lunch when a curly headed boy asked me if he could join my table.

"Of course, I don't even have someone to be here. Not that I'm waiting for someone. Have a seat." I awkwardly said. Way to make the first impression great Dream. He was the first one to approach me and join me on the table, except Daniel, in this school. Why do I even think of Daniel when he loaths my 'perfect' self.

"Wow, that's a mouthful for agreeing to let me sit on their table." He joked and I smiled. "You look tense, loosen up. I'm Jack."

I feel like he's new because I've never seen him before here and I already like him, not in a like like way. Oh, what am I, six? "Dream. You're new here?"

"Yeah, and thank you for agreein to sit with me and this is my 8th try." He joked. "I'm not a looser I promise."

A conversation bubbled, from where he came from, to moving here with his dad. "Hey, do you happen to have a boyfriend?"

"What?" I can't tell how he's got this energy or information that I have a boyfriend because I'm not really sure if I have that anymore.

"There's someone who's been glaring at me since I sat here." I looked at him to elaborate more on the information. "8 o'clock."

I looked to my left and saw a Daniel Seavey who has this really unpleased face. Why would he? Is he jealous? I don't think that he has that right right now so I rolled my eyes at him and brushed it off. "Ooh, the feisty kinda girlfriend." Jack joked and I can't help but laugh because that's really what I am right now.

It happens that Jack and I have classes together, three to be exact. It's fun that I have someone to talk to in between the discussions and he already knew what happened to me and Daniel. He thinks that it's a low blow but he said that we shouldn't just give it up. I am on my way to my locker and when I got there, I dumped all my shits there. A little later, my locker door was slammed right in front of me and if my fingers were in there, I wouldn't have them a little later.

"What do you want?" I spat at Dani's face even if he's towering me.

"So you have found a new one now?" He smirked. "I know you had it in you but I didn't think that you would move on that fast. You're something girl."

I slapped his face, I mean, how could he say that? I'm not some kind of slut who itch if he doesn't have a man. "Daniel, I know that you're saying this from anger but I'm really disappointed at what's coming out of your mouth." I started. "I didn't know that of all people, you would assume that way."

"Well, you can't blame me, you've done this to Zach then me. Who's next? That Jonah who maybe pretended that he has a girlfriend to avoid rejection." He slurred. I am seing red now.

"How fucking could you? You know what? We should end this. I'm tired of keeping up with the bullshit you guve and you say and I'm not staying to be your charity because you're a lost case." And with that, I left him in that hallway.

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wow it's been months since i haven't uploaded, i was busy cos of my college applications. also i was trying to figure out the story still cos it got jammed. thank you for all the love, d.

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