temporary | d.s.

15 - in the back

In that night, I poured my eyes out in front of the person who I'm most comfortable with. Daniel, my best friend. He's been really there since day one, since the first man broke my heart, he was there to lend a shoulder to cry on and I couldn't imagine any person who will be there to see my ugly crying face.

He took me on his arms and let me cry as we made our way to his car. He was basically shielding me from the crowd as I cry on his chest. He stayed silent as he comforted me with a hug that I missed. His hugs are the best, comforting. I shouldn't be talking about hugs when I clearly got cheated on right in front of my face. Wait, maybe it's not considered as cheating if there's no existing commitment, so I don't really have the right to be jealous.

"I'm so fucking stupid!" I screamed at his shirt while sobbing at the same time. "Tell me I'm stupid."

"No you're not." He tries to differ and comfort me.

"Yes I am. All I do is fucking push people away even if they cared. I worry about simple things too much until it's gone. He is the first one to care and now he's gone. He's tired of my bullshit, my selfish needs that I pushed him. What's wrong with him being with me? Why do I keep pushing people away when their intention was to be there for me. A kiss? Why didn't I allow it if that's what I want? I'm so scared to be alone yet I do this to people." I said as I sob. He released me and make me face him.

"You're not stupid ok? You pushed him because you every right to object. Well, probably maybe you're stupid because you're giving your first kiss to an undeserving idiot." He reasoned. I looked at him about to burst another emotional breakdown.

"I pushed him away when all he did was care. Now he's kissing some girl that can give him what he want." I said.

"Stop crying ok? If he's tired of your bullshit then I'm here. And he's the one who's stupid for kissing another girl." He comforts me.

"You'll get tired too. Everybody will and I'm gonna end up alone." I reasoned. I feel like the world is against me right. This stupid indecisive brain.

"No I won't, I will always be here. By your side no matter what." He started. "Even if you have your own life or maybe I'll have mine, I will still be right here. I will not get tired of your bullshit and that's who you are. If you keep messing up then that's ok, that's why I'm here for, to be with you no matter what." He calmly said.

"You know what, you are my favorite person in the world. You're always here for me even if I'm full of bullshit." I said as I hugged him.

"It's not like I have a choice." He said as we laughed together.

"Then why are you so distant to me this past few days." I asked him and I've been waiting to ask him this since.

"I just feel like you've been busy with someone else and I'd just be there to not be a barrier between you two." He explained and man, I'm the luckiest person to have this guy with me.

"Aww I'm sorry, but what's with the fancy date that you told him that I like." I laughed.

"Maybe that way, you'll realise that he's not the one and I didn't think that he would say that." He explained.

"Well, now I know that he isn't." I bitterly laughed as he joined me.

I'm sorry

I left the message on read because I don't want to deal with him right now.

We arrived at home and now it's 12 in the morning. I should've made a plan on how I will get inside our house without being seen or heard by my mom instead of crying through the whole ride.

"Wait." I whisper yelled at Dani who almost knock on the door. "Mom doesn't know."

"What do you mean your mom doesn't know?" He asked, so comfused on what's happening.

"Well, he's against Zach so I can't tell her that I'm going to his party and now that Zach doesn't exist then if she finds out I went out to see him, she would be pissed." I explained and he sents me this questioning look that he knew it wasn't just that for my mom to get pissed. "I kinda told her that I'll go to your house for an assignment."

"What?!" He exclaimed and I slap my hand to his mouth. "She should be pissed and I would be pissed also, she clearly is the smarter McBroom."

"Now stop lecturing me and give me a boost, I left my window open." I said as I climbed his shoulders.

"Great thinking." He mocked. "Maybe we should just knock and make her open the door since she knew that 'I'm with you for an assignment' instead of using me as a handsome human stool."

"Hey, I know you're stupid but don't let it show too much." I said as I struggle to climb the window. "She would grill me on how I managed to puff my eyes."

"Yeah, she probably would." He admit. I told you I'm the brain of this duo. I let him struggle to climb the window on his own since he's tall and I know he could carry his weight. It's not like we've never done this before. I know you wouldn't believe me if I say that I haven't sneaked out just to get a midnight trip to McDonald's with Dani.

"So what do we do now?" He asked clearly out breath from hoisting himself up here.

An idea popped into my head just to cure my heart break.

"Sit down." I said as I smirked at him, this idea will really be awesome and I don't know what's wrong with me not doing this earlier in our friendship.

"Hey, I know I'm irresistible but I couldn't just let you grapple me without a fight." He said and I looked at him confused at what he's talking about. "If we're gonna do this, let me lead you."

I'm clearly confused at what's happen- wait I know it. "No I wouldn't, you asshole." I said as I slap his dirty minded head.

"Ow, I'm joking." He teased. "Enlighten me on what you are gonna do to me." He said as he wiggle his eyebrows and I could really slap that eyebrows but I pity him and his red face from my previous slap.

"I'm gonna make you beautiful." I said as I grab the make up that I rarely use.

"No, no, no. We can just sleep and cuddle you know, not this. You're bad at doing this to yourself then why give it to me?" He said clearly unamused and nervous on what's about to happen.

"Touchè but be the loving best friend to make me happy." I said as I secure him in place, I started to glam him up and I know that all those time of me watching makeup tutorials instead of doing my assignments will be worth it. I still can't believe that he's letting me do this, hence the regret in his face. Now I'm finally finished with his glam and I really can't take him seriously.

"Now meet mu girlfriend, Danielle." O turned him around so he can see his face as I laugh at the background.

"Wow! I would fuck myself if I were a girl." He joked as an incoming smack gets its way.

"I'm upset that you're more beautiful than me as a girl." I said as I pulled my phone, uncontrollably laughing at him still can't believe at his face. "Now, pose there's a camera."

I snap a mirror selfie of us doing kissy face and I changed it to my lock screen.

"I'm glad that this made you happy."