temporary | d.s.

29 - i hated that it had to end

"I don't know what to feel or say but I didn't thought of that." I tried to form a sentence but it's the truth. "I didn't know that you felt this way because I thought that you're only treating me as a best friend should treat a best friend."

"Well, it's more than that. I've tried to be with other girls but you still stood out." He said lying his head down low. He's right in front of me while I'm seated at the edge of his bed. "I should've had the courage to admit it earlier but I don't want to ruin our friendship."

"This time, it's different. I know that you've gone through a bad heart break right now but let me." He holds my hand. "I'm so tired of doing this back and forth thing. I don't want to be your temporary anymore and I  hope that you will give me a chance. I'll wait I promise. I know that you have a bad past with promises but I'll stay true to it. I'll prove to you that I'm worth the risk."

I looked at him and smiled. This is what I'm supposed to be with. A man that will never get tired of me, a man that let me feel that I deserve the world, a man that was giving it all just for me, a man that would never take the chance to hurt me and that man is Daniel James Seavey.

"Yes." I smiled and his face is beaming with joy right now. He engulfed me with a hug and kissed my forehead. I don't need a boy, what I need is a man.

"You don't know how much you made me feel happy right now. So that date isn't a waste after all." He winked.

"Of course not, it's the best date I've gone through because it's with my favorite person." I beamed.

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This is better. Just me and Dani. I shouldn't just pushed away the feelings  before and let it out because where did that take me, a relationship with an asshole. I'm still holding the feelings back because I want to be sure about it before I jump into a relationship and this time, I want it to last. I know Daniel is a great man but there's still a part of me that's hurt and I don't want Dani to come in if I couldn't get over that yet and that's not fair if I did.

This is better. A man respecting a girl's decision if she doesn't want to rush thing. A true man understands. I don't know what's wrong with myself putting too much attention to an asshole if a decent man is literally in front of me.

Daniel Seavey has always been there and I'm too stuck up on an asshole. This time, it's right. I'm doing it right.

"Hey, Tom Holland just came and you're too busy ogling at me so you didn't saw it." Daniel speak up and what?!

"No! Rewind it." I demand as I try to snatch the remote.

"Tell me what you're thinking first." He damands. Will I really tell him? No, I don't want to embarass myself.

"It doesn't matter." I tried to convince him, tried and he really wasn't buying it. I gave up and tell some of it. "Well, I was just thinking of how lucky I am to have you."

"Aw, come here." As he hugged me the tightest and kissed my head a million times. "I will always be here, even if you don't want me anymore, I'd still be here."

"Never in a million years." My heart beats a little faster  especially when he's with me. I couldn't tell if he's hearing this but my heart could bust out of my chest right now and I don't know how he's doing this to me. I just stared at him as he cupped my face that's so little in his hands. I definitely know where this is going but it feels right. He closed the space between us and our lips immediately moved in sync. They're like dancing to the every beat of our hearts. This is what I imagined a kiss would be like, soft and tender, not forced and pressured.  He smiled at the kiss and pulled away. The heat is left in me which is foreign to me but I like it, I may need it if I get used to it.

"I'm sorry." He said and I didn't expect that to come out of his mouth so my face fall. He immediately noticed. "No, it's that I don't like it, I loved it by the way but I'm sorry that I went to that quickly after I promised you that I'll wait." He said, worried.

I smiled at what he said. He definitely know what to say that can lift up my spirit. "It's ok. I enjoyed it."

He smiled and pulled me it to give me a forehead kiss. I layed on top of his chest while we finished the movie. Well, I didn't finished it and I fell back to sleep.