temporary | d.s.

26 - i know you know that

Not being able to be close to Dani is horrible, as I said he's my only friend and I can't just trespass in Zach's circle. They don't even know yet because I know their gonna judge me for sticking by him.

I really miss Daniel so much, not being able to even smile at him is hard. Trust me I've tried but he wouldn't even spare a second to me. I know he'd said some hurtful words but I know he doesn't mean it. I understand that he's just looking out for me but this is my life. This is probably why's the whole world against me because I'm too self centered, my wants only.

About me and Zach on the other hand, he's been trying. I see that he's really proving himself that he was worth the chance and I see it. He's brought me to a couple dates that I enjoy and he's taking me this Friday night on a date. I can't wait to get this week over with.

And finally, the week is over. I am on my way downstairs dressed in a cropped top in a denim jacket with high waisted pants. He said he's taking me to the movies and this is probably the best one yet. I reached downstairs where my mom is and we're not really on speaking terms but we're working things out. I told her where I'm going so she got nothing to worry about.

"Hey, you look beautiful as always." Zach greeted me as he opened the door and thanked him.

The car ride was fast so we got into the mall, more time to spare. "What are we watching?" I asked.

"Some horror movie that they say was good but let's see." He informed. Horror movies, this was easy. All I had to do was laugh at it while Daniel got scared. Oh, Dani's not here. I should really stop thinking about him while I'm on a date.

The movie was great and I laughed all the way through. I like movies from before better, they have this unique storyline that's really scares me, not these present movies that's all cliché.

"I don't understand you." Zach laughed with confusion. "How can you laugh at that when I almost pissed my pants?" He said as I joined him in his laughter.

"I told you Dan- Zach that all those are just effects and they fail to amuse me." I explained and I can't believe that I let Dani's name slipped out. What is wrong with me?

As we walked out of the cinema and the mall, we saw a female dog, Allisa with her bitchlings behind.

"Oh, what a small world." Allisa spits. "People's right then, that you would meet the person you missed the most and it's you. I enjoyed last night though."

All hell is running through me now and if I wouldn't get this bitch's image out in my space, I can't promise that her head would still be attached to her body, prawn.

I walked away from what they're standing to Zach's car.

"Take me home!" I demand. The whole ride home was silent because the words that will come out of my mouth wouldn't be pleasing.

"I'm sorry." He said as soon as we reached my house.

"Stop fucking say that word if you would just do it again!" I exploded. "I gave you another chance and I was so stupid of doing so. You're a fuckibg asshole and I lost my best friend because of you."

"So that's it then, I didn't even felt you genuinely wanting to be with me. This was all about your best friend!" He shouted back and I wish this windows are sound proof because I don't wanr any attention right now.

"Don't fucking turn this on me because I wasn't fucking around like you." I exclaimed. "I trusted you when everyone's saying don't and I stayed even if I knew that there's a possibility that you would hurt me again."

I am on the verge of breaking down right now but not in front of him. I'm strong and don't need him anymore so I don't want to show him that. "You're shit to me!" I yelled as I slammed his door and he really doesn't want his precious car's door slammed, so fuck him!