SCENERY / Taejin

4. STIGMA

Hullo! Dear reader, Can you please do me a lil favour and pretend that Taehyung wrote STIGMA for Jin..
just for the sake of this fanfic🙆 🙏
The lyrics just matched so well to what I wanted Tae to convey. Thank you💜
(You can check out the lyric video too ⬆️)

I've been meaning to tell you..
tell you something
Just to leave it buried
Now I can't endure it anymore
Why couldn't I say it then
I have been hurting anyway
Really, I won't be able to endure it.

Deeper, deeper, the wound just gets deeper
Like pieces of broken glass that I can't reverse
Deeper, it's just the heart that hurts every day
You who was punished in my stead
You who were only delicate and fragile..

I'm sorry I'm sorry
I'm sorry my brother
Even if I try to hide it
Or conceal it, it can't be erased

(Are you calling me a sinner)
What more do I have to say..

So cry..
Please dry my eyes..

That light, that light, please illuminate my sins
Where I can't turn back
The red blood is flowing down
Deeper, I feel like dying every day
Please let me be punished
Please forgive me for my sins
Please..

"Jin-hyung, I told myself I'll keep my stigma to myself forever.
But why does it hurt so much?
It cripples my heart and mind and I can't think straight anymore.

As foolish as it sounds, will it be better if I let it out to the world? Would I feel free then?
I don't want to find out your reaction, or Bangtan's or ARMY's..
I don't want you all to look at me differently.
I don't want you to hate me. That's the single thing I fear the most.

But there's something in me that wants to shout it out.
I want to let you know how you make me feel.
Everything you do excites me.
Every word you utter, commands all my attention.
And everytime you touch me, you don't know how much I wrestle with my emotions.
You make me happy and you make me sad.
And it's torture to have you so near to me yet so far to reach.

I write this song and I sing it to the world instead.
What you won't know is that it's a most desperate letter to you..
Carrying a desperate cry..
To scream out to the world my feelings.

I don't want to hide anymore.
I want the heavens to illuminate my sins once and for all..
I want to tell the world,
I want to tell you."

© Lyrics translation by Genius Translations.
© Lyric Video on YouTube by @ashleygold25