Without You

chapter tweleve

Eva
At the hotel

I opened the door to mine and Makayla's room and walked in, Jack and Makayla following me.

She must of sensed the tension between us because she excused herself out of the room.

I sat down on my bed and he followed my action, sitting right next to me.

My eyes stayed glued to my lap, I did not know what to say.

I felt him relax and then he sparked the conversation, "I want you to stop beating yourself up about this."

If only it was that easy.

"Jack it's not like I have a choice. My guilty conscience is killing me. I've tried forgiving myself but I just can't. It's pathetic." I ran my fingers through my hair and rested them there with the support of my elbows that also rested on my knees.

My head hung low with all this stress and regret.

He rubbed my back and spoke again, "yeah, what you did was pretty shitty-"

I sat up straight and gave him a 'thanks for pointing out the obvious'  look and he continued talking, "but it's okay Eva. All you can do is grow from it and move on. Who gives a shit about what some random nobody thinks about you? They don't know the real Eva Goff, I can say that because I know the real you."

He now had placed a hand on my cheek and was staring right into my eyes, "your beautiful inside and out, your caring and considerate, your strong, and thats what makes you a good person. So what? You did something in a moment of pure weakness, nobody can hold that against you, especially someone who doesn't even know you."

I fiddled with my fingers that rested in my lap and smiled down at them.

He reaches over and interlocks our fingers, I look up at him and smile even wider.

He leans in and so do I, my other hand reaches up to his jawline and I caress it, enjoying his lips against mine.

We quickly pull apart, not like we'd get any punishment for kissing, but reflexes dude. Scared me.

I look at the door where the bang came from and see Makayla walk in holding her elbow, pouting.

"That fucking hurt. Sorry I didn't mean to interrupt anything" she said still pouting.

Jack stood up and hugged me, kissing my check and saying "I'll see you in a little bit"

He walked away and I looked at Makayla and she rolled her eyes, sarcastically saying "YAY let's pack!"

On the bus

I was the very last person to get on the tour bus and when I walked in, I was amazed at the luxury.

Everyone was scattered across the 'living room' part of the bus. I spotted Madison who was talking to Jack, sitting on the couch.

They were both smiling and my jealously started kicking in.

I walked closer and could hear her saying, "I'm glad we cleared that up and are friends now."

She smiled up at me when she noticed I was there. She stood up and I gave her a closed mouth smile and then took the seat that was previously hers.

Jack wrapped an arm around my shoulders and I laid my head on his shoulder.

"What were you guys talking about?" I asked, I tried to sound chill just because I want to trust him and I'm working on not assuming shit right away.

"You"

I stiffened and looked at him signaling I want to know exactly what about me they discussed.

"She was apologizing for having drunk sex with you and I told her it was harmless and she told me how lucky I am to have you, and then we cleared the air and we're all friends now, right?" He cocked an eyebrow at me and I nodded.

"Yeah were all good"

He kissed my cheek and then moved his plump lips to my ear, whispering, "I'm hungry"

I giggled at his cool breath hitting my ear. I looked down smiling and said "let's get some food then."

Still whispering in my ear, "I'm not hungry for food. I'd rather eat you"

BLUSHING SO HARD RIGHT NOW

I smirked and stood up grabbing his hand and leading him back through the bus and to the beds.

I grabbed my speaker from my bag.

I opened the current of the middle one and hopped up in there, him following.

He closed the curtain and I turned on my beats pill, connecting my phone and playing down below by Roddy Ricch.

I pulled him down on top of me, laying on my back and his stomach against mine.

He smiled and said quietly said, "try not to be to loud"

I blushed and smiled as he dipped his head to the crook of my neck, and started sucking.