Without You

chapter thirtyone

Eva

I push Cameron off of me, "Cameron what the fuck?"

He looked hurt, "I want to be with you Eva"

Unbelievable. "Cameron I'm not a cheater and I'm not going to cheat on Jack! I love him and I'm sorry but I don't feel the same way. And you can't just force yourself on me and think what, that I'll drop everything I have with Jack and be with you?"

He looked at me 'matter of factly' and said "actually yes."

"Cameron, I- this is fucking unbelievable. I've gotta go."

He grabbed my arm and tried pleading with me, "Cameron let me go."

His fingers fell from my wrist and I ran away.

What the hell just happened?

I'm so uncomfortable right now, I love Cameron don't get me wrong, but not in that way.

I felt the fresh tears run down my cheeks, I'm so upset with myself right now, was I putting out the wrong impression? I just lost a really good friendship and that hurts the most.

I need to talk to jack. I shouldn't keep this a secret.

I pull out my phone and call him.

He picks up on the second ring.

*convo*
J- hey babygirl
E- *crying* jack- I - I need to tell you something
J- Baby what's wrong? Are you okay?
E- I was with Cameron at his photo shoot and after it was over-
J- you were hanging out with Cameron !?
E- yes- but listen
J- Eva why didn't you tell me?
E- Jack! Just listen to me- we were just hanging out as friends and then all of a sudden he started pouring his heart out to me about how much he loves me and how you don't deserve me and then he kissed me-
J- THAT MOTHER FUCKER KISSED YOU!?
E- I pushed him off-
J- I have to go, ill see you when you get here
*convo*

Before I even had time to say anything the line went dead.

He said see me when I get there, that's still in 2 days, does that mean he doesn't want to talk to me until I get there?

How did a perfectly innocent day turn into such a shitty day so quick?

It hit me that I came here in Cameron's car and mine is at his house, so I guess I'll have to Uber to him.

I ordered an Uber and thankfully it came quick.

I got into the car, sitting in the backseat, the female Uber driver must of noticed my distraught because she said, "is everything okay?"

I didn't feel like reliving with just happened so I said, "no but I'll be okay, thanks for asking though." I forced a sincere smile but stayed silent for the rest of the ride.

We pulled up to the parking garage and she looked up at the building, "there you are, I hope your day gets better sweetie."

I thanked her and got out of the car, quickly walking into the parking garage to fetch my car- FUCK.

My keys are in his fucking apartment.

I hate this. Oh my fucking GOSH.

I threw my head back and shook it in disbelief.

"Why me?"

I rolled my eyes and let out a huge huff, hopefully Nash is home and Cameron isn't.

I made my way up to his apartment, thank god I remembered which one was theirs.

I knocked lightly, and stepped back, bracing myself.

The door opened and I came face to face with.... of course Cameron.

"Eva? What are you doing here?" He looked confused and concerned.

"I just need my keys." I was quiet and I hated this whole conversation. I feel so uncomfortable and awkward.

"Oh uh one second I'll get them."

He left and the door slowly closed but before it shut all the way he opened it and handed me my car keys.

I quickly turned to leave but he stepped out into the hallway calling out my name.

"Fuck me" I mutter to myself.

I turned around and looked at him, "Cameron I just came to get my keys, I'm not ready to talk whatever the fuck this is, out."

He nodded and put his head down, before anything else was said I turned around and made my way away from him once again.

Back at Eva's house

I laid down on my bed, sighing and letting everything that just happened hit me.

Jesus.

I pulled my phone up to my face and tried calling jack, sadly it just rang and rang, going to his voicemail.

Fuck my life. Literally.