Without You

chapter twentythree

Eva
Back home after shopping

I haven't really spoken much since Makayla showed me the guy's new song in the car. Honestly I'm pretty upset.

I never though in a million years Jack would right a break up song about me. I can't even imagine what else is said in that song and it makes my stomach turn just thinking about it.

I'd never diss him in a song that's going to be released into the world and stay there forever because it's never going to be unheard.

I just hope he'd do the same.

I need to talk to him. Like honestly talk to him and tell him how I'm feeling and open up because I'm sick of the games.

And as much as it hurts to say this, if there is another girl in his life I need him to tell me so I can stop putting myself out there and looking stupid.

Things used to be so much simpler, why can't we just go back to that ugh.

I just need to clear my head and get ready for the party tonight.

I set my bags down on my bed and just then my stomach grumbles.

Now that I think about it I haven't eaten all day and I'm starving.

I walk into the kitchen and start searching through the fridge and decide on cutting up some strawberries, sprinkle some sugar on them, and also make some avocado toast.

Who cares it's like 5 o'clock, breakfast is good always.

I grab my hydro flask from the cabinet and walk over to the fridge and fill it up with water from the door.

I screw the cap on and sit in the tall spiny chair that's placed at the large marble bar lining a huge part of our kitchen.

I bite into my toast and just then the boys all wonder into the cool house from the 100 degree weather outside. They must have been playing basketball because Skate is holding a ball and they are all hella sweaty.

I catch the holy gaze of Gilinsky's abs as he stands shirtless drinking out of a water bottle.

"Hi boys" I smile and say as I take another bite of my food.

Sammy smiles and says, "mmm that looks good, give me a bite."

I roll my eyes and hold it up so he can take a bite, he hums as he chews his food.

"Damn I should wife you up" he winks at me and I smile, blushing, but my eyes divert to jack hoping to see him get jealous.

Which doesn't happen at all because he didn't even hear or see anything that just happened.

Why you might ask? Because he is texting away on his stupid phone.

He's probably texting that slut he was on the phone with earlier. I really need to find out who she is.

Fucking bitch.

I totally lose my appetite and push my plate away.

"You can have the rest of it Sammy. I'm gonna start getting ready."

My voice comes out low and I can tell he knows something is up, but he nods and steals the toast off of my plate.

I do however grab my hydro flask and make my way past the boys and back to my room.

I shut the door behind me and walk over to my dresser, turn on my beats pill that sits on top of it.

The Way I Are by Bebe Rexha starts playing and I slowly let go of all my negative energy.

Music really is an escape from reality, it makes me feel good.

I step into my bathroom and turn on the hot water of my shower.

I walk back into my room and grab my speaker, phone, and water bottle and walk into my bathroom closing the door.

I strip out of my clothing and throw them into the laundry basket.

I step into the shower humming along to the music.

I run my fingers through my dark ass hair letting the water soak it.

I love showers, always.

After shower

I wrap my hair into a towel and wrap another one around my body.

I walk out of my bathroom, leaving the door open so I can still hear my music.

My outfit for tonight is a white two piece dress, with glitter outline.

Makayla got a sliver glitter dress that is tight fitting and low cut making her boobs look really good.

I though about how I should do my hair, I'm thinking definitely an updo.

I grabbed a white silky thong and slipped it onto my body. I'm not going to wear a bra because my dress's top already has wire in it.

I don't want to put my dress on right away so I grabbed a shirt and slipped it on, it ends right at my ass but oh well.

I sat down at my vanity and started on my makeup.

I gathered all my hair into my hands and tied it into a bun on top of my head. I turned up the volume on my phone as Hey Look Ma, I Made It by Panic! At The Disco.

"If you lose boo hoo, hey look ma I made itttttt" I quietly sung out as I stated to prime my face.

Tonight I'm going full out glam so you've gotta hit every step.

I lowkey think I'm pretty fucking good at makeup. I'm really good at doing eyeshadow.

Like I did mine and Makayla's and my other friend from high school, her name was Lixi. She moved to Cuba one day and none of us have heard from her since.

It's honestly sad but whatever if she really missed me then she could've call anytime these past idk 3-4 years? Like the fuck? Why should I feel sad about it?

Obviously she didn't car-

My subconscious rant was cut short when my phone started ringing.

It was jack, and he was face timing me. That's weird.

*convo*
E- uh hi jack?
J- heyyyy. What are you doing?
E- my makeup, for Sammy's party tonight. Why did you call me when you could've just came to my room. *laughs and starts applying foundation*
J- oh yeah I keep forgetting we live with each other. I'll be there in a minute.
E- okay bye-
J- NO! Stay on ft me until I get to your room.
E- *throws head back and laughs* oh my god your such a child
J- take that back
E- no way

"Yes way." Jack says as he opens my door.

"No." I hide my smile and try to look serious.