Without You

chapter twentytwo

Eva

"I gotta go. Talk to you later."

The door then opens and I quickly hide the shitty ass look on my face with a bright smile.

"Hey what's up E?" Jerk ass hoe.

"Uh nothing I just wanted to show you something in the studio, so uh meet me in there."

I quickly turn away and make my way down the hallway again.

God why am I so weird?

Jack

I throw my phone down on the bed and follow her through the house and downstairs to the studio room.

We all walk into the studio. Makayla is sitting on JJ's lap half asleep on the couch, Skate is leaning against the sound board eating an apple, Sam is sitting in the chair next to the couch and I took a seat on the arm of the couch.

Eva stood in front of us and I now notice the flash drive she's holding in her hand.

"Okay! I'm sorry for waking you up, but! last night me and Jamal stayed up ALL night and WE FINISHED MY FIRST SINGLE!"

Makayla jumps up, now wide awake and hugs Eva, "Oh my god! That's huge! I'm so happy for you!"

She pulls away from the embrace and Eva smiles so perfectly and says, "thank you so much."

Makayla laughs and pushes her towards the sound system and says, "play that shit" and then goes back over to sitting on JJ's lap now fully interested in what Eva has to show us.

She sits in the office chair and spins around to the laptop and opens it, plugging in her flash drive and playing the audio file.

*plays Breathin*

Wow. This song slaps!

I'm so fucking proud of her right now!

The lyrics are so girly but they are a part of her, she uses her own experience and puts it in the song.

One verse says, "You remind me of a time when things weren't so complicated."

It makes me think of us, like maybe she sees me as a reminder of how perfect our time was when we first started dating. I don't know about her, but that was the best 3 months of my entire life.

Later that day
Eva

It was around 12:30 ish I think and I'm currently getting ready to go out and go shopping with Makayla for Sammy's party tonight.

It's weird honestly, it feels like we were just getting ready for high school house parties, but now we're getting ready for fancy ass release parties. And soon enough I'm going to be hosting one.

The venue is a fancy restaurant, but Sammy bought out the roof top and is having a dj and a bar and all that so this should be fun as fuck.

I'm limiting myself tonight. Yes Madison should be there but NO we are not getting crazy. Not any time soon at least.

I slip into some black booty shorts with a white tie in the front and a black and white checkered tube top.

I turn to the side and look in the mirror to see if my butt looks good. Yep. Damn I'm lowkey thicc as fuck.

Jack sure is missing out. 

I slip into my matching vans and fix my natural curly hair. Then I reach for my phone, wallet, and keys and head out of my room, closing the door behind me.

Makayla was already outside waiting for me so I walk through the living room and past the boys who were playing fortnite on the very overly large flat screen TV.

I was stopped by Jacks words, "damn"

I smiled to myself and turned towards him, I gave him a quick wink and kept walking.

Part of me wants to think we're okay and that we'll get back together soon, that he'll come to his senses and ask me out again, but the other part of me does want to explore more of myself.

Not in a perverted way lol, but like find myself, that could mean like my music, friends, hobbies, maybe even other boys. Maybe.

I don't know, I just want to be happy and I know jack makes me happy, but there's always something with him. We can't ever just work out, there's always a bump in the road with him.

I brush all of those confusing thoughts away and unlock my car and get into it, Makayla following me.

"Okay so I was thinking sparkles? Sexy and hot, definitely revealing, sound good?" Makayla didn't look up once as she kept scrolling through Pinterest for ideas for our outfits.

I nodded laughing and started my car, backing up and then pulling out of the drive large drive way.

For what she's thinking, our first stop must be Mint Collection. They have really fancy dresses and I love shopping there.

We were driving in silence until Makayla said, "please tell me you and Jack are getting back together"

I laughed and said "I really don't want to be that couple that breaks up and gets back together all the time."

She nodded, "I totally understand but you guys were just so good together!"

I then nodded, "I know right! I don't know, I mean I still love and care about him so much."

She went to say something but then stopped herself.

I gave her a hard look and said "say it."

She groaned and said, "okay so I was in the studio with Johnson and Jack and I heard the new song their working on and it's totally about you."

I wanted to slam on the breaks but thank god we were already at the store so I pulled over and threw my car into park.

"Please tell me the lyrics!"

She pulled up something on her phone and it was a video.

Oh god.

"I'm a better man cause of you. Thought we had a chance, that's true. But you have weapons, didn't know you have weapons. Now I'm insecure and stressed out, when someone gets close I shut down. Always second guessing, got so many questions."

The video stopped playing and I looked up at her scared, "that's it!?" 

She nodded sympathetically.

Damn, I didn't know that's how he really felt.