Bitter Sweet (COMPLETED)

Dalawampu't pito

Uminom lang kami ng uminom at patuloy na nagkwentuhan. Nakakarami na rin kami ng inom pero hindi pa rin kami tumitigil dahil sa masaya naming kwentuhan.

"First girlfriend?" I asked.

"Real girlfriend ba?" He asked.

Tinignan ko siya ng masama. "Kidding." He said then made a peace sign. "You're may not be the first but I'm sure that you'll be the last." He leaned closer then started kissing me.

It's a different kind of kiss. It's a passionate one. I started answering his kisses when he stops. "Please tell me to stop right now baby. Or else there's no turning back."

I pulled him and started kissing him. I flinched when I felt his hands touched my body. His hands roams around my body and it's giving me a warm sensation. We're at the pick of the heat when I tensed and he stopped again. "I know that you're not ready for this... It's just the alcohol baby. I don't want you to hate me the next day just because of this." He said and kissed me in the forehead.

He carried me like a bride and went to his room. Ibinaba niya ako at inihiga ng maayos. "Ayusin ko lang 'yong kalat sa labas." Aniya bago ako iniwan doon.

That was too close. Muntik nang may mangyari sa amin. Bigla akong nahiya dahil sa nangyari. Hindi ko tuloy alam ngayon kung paano haharap sa kaniya mamaya. Kahit gusto ko ng matulog ay hindi ako makatulog. It's like my mind is having it's own flashbacks.

Naramdaman ko ang paghiga niya sa kama nang makarating ito sa kwarto. "I love you baby. Please don't get mad at me." He said and hugged me from the back.

Hinarap ko siya at yumakap dito. "I'm not mad. Thank you for not losing your control... I know that it's hard but you still think of me. I'm sorry baby and thank you. I hope that you won't find another girl just because of what happened." Sumubsob ako sa dibdib nito.

"I won't. Always remember that okay? Nakapaghintay nga ako ng matagal ngayon pa kayang sa'kin ka na. I can wait baby. Don't worry about it." He said then kissed the top of my hair.

Nakatulog kami ng ganoong pwesto at nagising sa parehong posisiyon. Nauna na akong bumangon at nagpasyang maghanda ng umagahan.

Nakakita ako ng pasta sa fridge niya kaya iyon na lang ang naisipan kong lutuin. I plan to cook a tuna carbonara. Siguro ay aayain ko siyang mag-grocery mamaya para may stock siya dito sa unit niya. Halos wala na rin kasing laman ang ref at cupboard niya.

Since may nakita akong loaf bread ay tinoast ko na lang ito. Kakalapag ko lang ng kape sa mesa nang makita ko siyang papalabas ng kwarto. "Good morning." Masayang bati ko dito.

"Good morning baby." Malambing niyang bati at saka ako hinalikan sa pisngi. "Didn't know that you can cook." Biro nito matapos niyang umupo.

"Don't eat." Irap ko dito.

"Joke lang. I know that you can cook. You used to live alone in Spain and I know that you're not fond of eating in a resto. Saka alam kong marunong kang magluto since highschool." Aniya habang sinisimulan ang pagkuha ng pagkain.

"Stalker." Palatak ko dito at saka sinimulan ang pagkain.

"It tastes good. Pwede na pala tayong ikasal anytime. Hindi ako magugutom." He said after finishing his one plate and getting for another one.

"Ewan ko sa'yo. Mag-grocery tayo mamaya para dito sa unit mo." I said.

"Alright baby. Pero magpalit ka ng soot mo ha. You look sexy in my shirt but that's for my eyes only." He winked at me.

"Ewan ko po sa'yo. Wash the dishes okay. I'll just change." I said then left him.

Tumakbo ako pabalik sa kusina. "I have a problem." Sabi ko dito.

"What's that?" He asked.

"I can't wear my clothes yesterday dahil pang office 'yon. Sa grocery tayo pupunta tapos -."

"Find anything in my closet." He cut me.

I saw a hoodie. It looks like a dress to me kaya ito na lang ang sinuot ko. "Let's go." Aya ko dito matapos kong magpalit.

He just grab his keys and a shirt then drove to a supermarket. Bumili din ako ng damit matapos naming mag-grocery and a pair of undies of course.

"Bukas ka na umuwi ha." Pagpapa cute ni Charles sa harap ko.

"Bakit?" Taas kilay kong tanong.

"Just want to spend more time with you. We'll have a busy week after this. A week or a month. I don't know. So let's spend time together before busy days come." He said.

"Okay." I just answered.

"Yes!" He exclaimed.

We spent another day and night together. Knowing each other deeper, with some chips, music and beers. It felt so at peace. 'Yong chill lang kayo pareho with both imperfections and the likes. Sobrang gaan sa pakiramdam. 'Yong hindi pilit. Sobrang saya sa puso.

Minsan kasi you just let it flow then it will glow na ng kusa. Hayaan lang kumbaga. Tamang kalma kalma lang at 'wag masiyadong gawing komplikado ang buhay. Mas okay kasi lalo na 'pag nasa relasiyon. Sa sobrang dami kasing ka-shitan sa mundo, masaya 'yong may makakasamang pang balanse. Gano'n naman lagi. Put everything in balance.

I know that we're just starting, that's why I want to spent every moment with him being happy. Kasi 'pag dumating na 'yong oras na magkakaroon ng problema at mga hindi pagkakaunawaan. Hindi mabilis sumuko kasi panghahawakan ko 'yong mga masasayang alaala na nakatatak sa puso't utak ko.

Papatibayin namin ang simulang ginagawa namin para naman 'pag nawawalan na kami ng dahilan magpatuloy, babalikan namin pareho kung paano namin binuo ang simula ng masayang magkasama. Hindi naman kasi maiiwasang magka-gusot ang relasyon. Pero kung pareho kaming lalaban para rito, pareho rin kaming magtatagumpay para malutas ito.

To love is to constantly remind yourself that being happy and being sad is a part of it. Not always black and white. Not always this and that. There are always in between. It should be worked together by pair. Make every moment worthwhile. Like loving at your last time.