Downfall

Chapter 13 : The wheel has turned

Another memory of Lucas Brown flashes back, i was expecting another romance kind of thing but it turns out differently. Lucas in here was cold, distant, different. 

He was beginning to avoid me, everytime i try to invite him, he declines. usually, he was the one who invites me and i was the one who declines first. but now, it is totally different. I feel the pain whenever he declines me. is this how he felt whenever i did this to him? I must have really hurt him

was this a punishment?

When we are together with friends, he become so distant, he doesn't really talk to me that much anymore, if before he used to tell me what he was watching on his computer, this time, he doesn't

He used to offer me some movies but now he does it to a different person

He used to text longer messages, now, it's cold and short

when has this started? why? and what did i do to make things so complicated?

was i really expecting much? does he know i like him but he only treats me as a friend and that's why he is avoiding me?

a sign of dumping?

wow! being dumped really hurts, especially if you are dumped by your close friend

i wanted to talk to him, i wanted to ask him why? why is he becoming like this?

One day, an anonymous person asked him in ask.fm a question "Who's better, Sam or Amy (was the other girl he's getting close to these days)?"

his answer was

"they are both equally good friends"

friend

equal?

are you kidding me? we spent so many memories than her

why are you making me or putting me at the same lever as her

i hate to admit it but i got jealous. big time

i never was jealous until now, until he became so distant, until he does things he usually do for me to a different girl. 

And now, the wheels has turned, the tables are turning. 

i am the persistent. i am the one who wants to be with him

he's the decliner. he's the one who wants to avoid me

I can't believe why it ended this way, i can't believe i fall deeper than the titanic accident. 

Everything seems to be a blurry memory

i miss it. i miss him. i miss us.

"us", does it really even exist in the first place?

Was i just expecting too much from him?

It was then i realized that i'm beginning to fall in love with him. 

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the heartache i felt at that time, that same pain, i am now experiencing it. i can't even remember how we changed at that span of time. it was all too fast that i can't digest it in my mind and in my heart. Lucas Brown, a guy who means a lot to me and now it seems that we are back to square one, we were just like strangers just passing each other in the hall. it hurts. it really does

*again, it's a short one because this memory of Sam is short too

what will happen to the both of them? Is Lucas really mad at her? what's going on? *