Downfall

Chapter 25: A toast for a new beginning

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"call the doctor!" my mom exclaimed

then my father called my doctor. Dr.Lim

"what's wrong? what happened?"

"i guess she's waking up, oh God, thank you" my mother said

"she was moving her fingers awhile ago" my dad said

"wait, let me see"

then the doctor check up on me, and i was beginning to open my eyes

"this is such a great news, a miracle" the doctor said while smiling so widely

"where am i?" i said

"your safe now sweetie, you are back now. i am so glad you came back" my mother cried

my brother cried too

my dad too

they were all happy that i came back. alive.

"she needs to take a rest first, so she'll be discharged by tomorrow, i have to check up on her one last time, if the brain waves are just being normal, and once it's okay, then she'll be out tomorrow" the doctor said

"thank you doc" my dad replied

"so, how are you feeling?"

"ti-ired i guess" i said with a weak and small voice

"just get rest, i guess monsters have their weak days too huh" my brother said

now he can joke happily. i guess he was really relieved that i was alive

"whatever. ofcourse, i get weak sometimes"

"sshh, no joke and play time for now, you need to rest" my mom said

"okay okay." i replied

i took some rest and got to sleep again

the next morning i was discharged from the hospital. my dad brought some fruits along the way. they said it's good for recovery. parents. well, i'm happy they are at my side at this time of my life. recovering from a serious injury and accident. 

i can't believe i even survive. they said i was coma for like  2 weeks now and all i can remember was having that suicide plan

since i survive then that means my plan didn't work out. so i guess i must keep it a secret. that it wasn't really an accident.

When i got to my room, everything was still the same since that last time i saw it, my pink pillows are in my bed, all of my stuff toys were just sitting at my bed. and my books are all ordered in the cabinet. yes, i did all the cleaning and arranging since i really thought i was gonna die. i don't want to hassle them in cleaning my stuffs. i wanted for them to remove and throw all of it in an easy way. no more need for cleaning

it was a good feeling, going back home, i never felt so home sweety home since i found out what my mother has been hiding

right. it's still a fact and i still remember it clearly. that my mother fell out of love to my dad. and they have broken up but here they are, united. just like i wanted to

i guess there was a reason for me to be alive. the reason was. this. my family. i need to fix it. i need to talk to my mom about it again. 

"mom, so are you gonna come back?"

"what do you mean honey?"

"to us, to dad?"

"i don't know sweetie, let's just talk about it when you are fine okay?"

"okay"

then my mother just stared at me. and then she said her goodnight, kissed me in the forehead and whispered the words "i love you" and went out to my bedroom

so i lay in my bed thinking what tomorrow brings and still confused what was the reason for me to still be breathing here on earth. in fact i was pretty sure i will be waking up and seeing heaven. the paradise i longed for.

then i guess i'm stuck here again. for a long time

then morning came, breakfast was served and cooked by my mother. she cooked waffles today and prepared some bread. 

she offered me juice too

it was just like the days before. before it all happened.

then I and Max ride the school bus

"hey! welcome back Hilary, so happy to see you" bus driver said

"thank you" i replied smiling back at him

then at school. all the students were pretty happy and shocked that i survive.

i was getting popular for one day. they were all concerned. i don't know if it was real but i guess i loved the feeling of it.

everybody was asking if i saw God and the light of heaven, or i even came across to saint peter, or did i saw the gates of heaven. well, i couldn't answer that since i can't remember what happened in my unconsious mind

a lot asked me if i was okay too, or how did it feel to survive? to get a second chance

then i think to myself.

i don't even need this second chance crap you are talking about. want my second chance? then you can have it

but a single fragment in my mind reminds me or made me think, reliving had a purpose and i had to fulfill that purpose.

for now, i don't know what that is

so i went to my classroom and there, in front of me, in the board, a banner was hanged. "welcome back Samantha Walters, we are so happy to have you back on board" and all of my friends were there. Anna, Jessy, Lisa and Rei. and shockingly, Lucas was welcoming me too with a big and bright smile on his face.

he seems to delighted to have me back 

i was a bit touched and feeling all blushy again. i guess my feelings for him are still there. it didn't die

then they all went towards me and hugged me

except for Lucas, i guess he was feeling shy and then Lisa told him

"Hey! Lucas, hug her now, you were all so worried about her"

"what? no i wasn't"

"yeah right! You see Sam, he was so sad that you were in a coma, he coudn't sleep for days" Anna said

and the four of them laughed

i smiled too

and he was bowing down his head, acting all shy and embarrased

and then, he hugged me

"i'm glad that you're here with us, Walters"

"i'm glad too" i replied