Downfall

Chapter 14 : busy as a bee

as the next scene flashes, my heart doesn't seem to cooperate with my mind. I don't want to feel such pain, if this is just another painful memory, then please, let it stop, let me wake up from this bad dream. But i couldn't stop the scene from appearing. and thus another memory of mine has shown

it was a memory of me with my two best of friends, Lisa and Jessy. remember them?

it's a memory during our second year of college, we were all busy with our own schedules and our own lives that we seem to forgot to hang out. Jenny is the most busy person among the three of us. Well, she's active to a lot of organizations. Lisa, well, sometimes, she is busy and sometimes she's not. it was the same in my situation too. It's been what, like 3-4 years since we last hang out, just the three of us. Lisa and I usually got time to hang out but with Jessy, it's impossible.

She have been so busy, especially when she got a boyfriend, but they didn't last longer than i thought. but at least they laster for a year. One night, we planned to hang out, just the three of us, Lisa was the first one to organize the date night, but then, we were all so busy, our schedules were tight, i had a lot of papers that are due within that week, so as Jenny.

So, again, we postponed it, like any of those other date night we wanted to have but then it just got postponed and postponed until we all seem to forgot it. We even forgot our anniversary as bestfriends. I usually take a note of it in my calendar but that year, that month, i seem to forgot it. We all got busy with our different or new set of friends in college. 

The next week, Lisa again organized another event for us to hang out. At first we were okay with it, but when wednesday came, a lot of things again are needed to be done! i can't seem to just ignore it, so i texted lisa that i can't come. So, the plan got postponed again. This time Lisa was very depress and mad at us. and she texted us 

"Why can't you just for once, take a time off and just enjoy a day, just the three of us?"

She was right. We had taken for granted each one of us. We seem to forget. I seem to forget them. i was guilty because she was right. I got to busy with my new friends that i forgot my old ones, the ones who stayed with me when i was just a complete stand-by, an invisible person to the eyes of others. there are a lot of things we even have to talk about, personal stuffs, fun stuffs and others. 

so i replied to her

"you are right, i really am sorry. i hope i can make it up to you guys!"

jessy replied too

"i know i was so busy and all, i should have just called you guys or texted you. i'm sorry :(" she said

We were all so sorry for the things we have done. I hope that next time, we can be pretty full-time available towards one another. Especially those times that we needed each other.

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this one's not a bit sad but it makes me miss them more. How i wish i could just hug those two