His Melanin Addiction

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Trinity Carter

"Josiah...I'm late." I said looking him deep into his eyes.

"For class, baby girl just go?" he said, obviously not catching on. I glared at him, and he stared back confused then his face started to soften. His eye started to get glossy.

"Y-Y-You pregnant?" he asked. And I looked down. And nodded. He smiled so big.

"Well I don't know for sure." I said.

"I don't care baby you're having my baby!" he said lifting me and spinning me around. My eyes got really watery and I started crying.

This was definitely something I was fearing. I mean I know that telling him about the baby could be either three things. He'd be pissed, overjoyed or nonchalant about it. But here he was excited, deep down I wanted him to be upset or not care. I deeply hate that he's so happy and I am terrified and upset.

"Josiah, can you put me down." I said he shook his head as he danced with me wobbling all over the place in his arms.

"Josiah, I'm not pregnant." I said sternly making him stop dancing. He put me down and looked me in the face.

"Wait, what now I'm confused."

"And so am I." I said back, before sitting on the bleachers.

"Are you pregnant?" he asked with a hopeful look on his face.

"I don't know yet. The only thing that I am sure about is that I am three weeks late." I answered. He looked at me with a confused face.

"You don't sound happy." he said looking at me like I was weird.

"To be honest I'm not." I said, I swear I saw a look of sadness sweep over his face.

"You don't want to have my baby?" he asked, of course making this about himself.

"No, not right now." I answered. His jaw clenched he was upset. He looked as if he wanted to start up an argument with me, but I beat him to the punch.

"I know you aren't upset, that I don't want to have a baby right now. We are both college students and athletes, meaning that majority of our classes and books are paid for because were athletes. Josiah I love you trust me I do, but I love myself too. I am not ready for a baby at this age let alone my condition."

"I have a son, right now in my current condition what's the point?"

"No offense, but think about it. You aren't really raising your son, he only sees you on some weekends or on days when Kim can't take care of him. You have a small job but it is not strong enough to support one child let alone another one." I said, the look on his face told me that he wasn't listening to what I was saying, he heard me but he wasn't listening his mind was made up.

"Trinity-"

"Josiah, I know you aren't about to try to guilt me into bringing a baby into the world when I am not ready for one. I am the one that will be carrying the baby for nine months, I'm the one who's life is surely changed. You can continue to play football everything will flow fine for you, but my dreams will be put on hold, I can't run track like I do now." I snapped. His features started to soften. He sighed. He stuck his arms out.

"I'm sorry baby, I ain't mean to upset you or nothing. I just got excited." he said wiping a tear off my face. I sniffled and he kissed my face.

"You do whatever makes you happy." He said kissing my forehead as he brought me in to hug him. It was then I noticed what he said.

"Makes me happy?" I asked and he nodded.

"What about your happiness?" I asked and he smirked.

"When we are both get our careers in order and get where we need to be we can start a family and have as many kids as you'd like, that's what is gonna make me the happiest man in the world." he smiled and that made me smile. Apart of me wanted to have a baby with him because I could see that he grew up mentally for real. Cause the old him would've been pissed right now. I actually should have been more clear with him because I don't know if I am pregnant for sure. I was just nervous and he was the only person I ever thought about telling.