His Melanin Addiction

39

Josiah Davis

She was in tears.

I mean I wanted to cry too, but Trinn she was devastated. I needed to be strong for her. The whole crew was here. Her mom, Chast, Kamahi, Tammy, Alina and Me. Everyone was here, the news she got this morning was the worst thing going on right now.

So we went to the specialist this morning and she said that Trinn did and will struggle with her fertility, because there's some extra tissues around her uterus so pretty much it's a very rare chance that she would conceive let alone have a full term pregnancy. Of course I was crushed but Trinn was broken. She has been so apologetic to me like she did something to cause this when I know she hasn't. The doctor said it's usual for older woman to struggle with this but Trinn was just 20 years old this is what made the doctor skeptical to see if there was anything she could have Trinn try like she was some kind of science project. But I denied it, cause whatever this doctor say God can say other wise.

"Josiah." I heard my name and looked over to see Kamahi. I wasn't up to hear her bullshit at all. I looked at her with a blank face and she sighed.

"You know, this whole thing wouldn't be so bad if you didn't force having a baby on her-"

"What?"

"You heard me she's mainly hurt cause she said you forced her to have a baby by you." KK was partially right but I wasn't and would never force sex from anyone let alone Trinn, Kamahi was just trying to start shit. And I am not in the mood cause today would be the day I put my hand on a female and it would be KK for sure.

"Kamahi get your ass on, I'm getting tired of your shit. You here to comfort Trinity right so do it and stay the fuck away from me aight." I couldn't hold in my word I was angry. She always made everyone around her angry

"KK, it's time we go." Tammy said Alina nodded. Kamahi looked at me.

"She deserves so much better than a cheater like you." she spat. Like literally spat on me. I took a deep breath.

"Pussy boy." she said, I was about to step to her but Alina stood in front of me.

"She ain't worth it. Go sit and relax." she said. I glared at the door imagining her falling down some steps. Was I wrong to think of that, of course was I gon stop. I think the fuck not. I walked over to the living room chair and Alina sat there looking sad.

"She doesn't blame you, nor does she say that you pressured her." Alina whispered. I nodded.

"She's blaming herself. With this whole scare I think she was hoping that she was pregnant. I mean no girl that wants to have her own children wants to find out she can't have any or will have super difficulties to have one." Alina said looking sad.

Miss Aasha opened the door and walked out and I stood up she walked over to me and gave me the tightest hug. She was squeezing me and then I felt all her pain she was bawling more than Trinity. I held her as she cried and Alina rubbed her back. She sniffled some times before pulling away and sitting on the couch.

"My baby is hurting and this is a boo boo I can kiss and put a band aid on. I don't know how to fix this. She's hurting deeper than I have ever felt."

"This is not just a miscarriage but a complete dream crusher. I haven't prepared her for anything like this. Neither of my girls, I haven't taught them what to do in a time like this. Whatever I say will be hypocritical. Do you understand the only thing I can do is hold her and love her."

"None of us can fix this." she broke down again.

Listening to miss Aasha she was hurting too. She was sad cause she didn't know how to make Trinn feel better. How to put a smile on her child's face. I imagined me not being able to make Lindo feel safe and loved and I knew where she was coming from.