His Melanin Addiction

14

Trinity Carter

We pulled up to the hospital, and he dropped me off at the door since it started to rain. I wondered if I should go or wait for him. When I was about to walk in. I heard some splashing in the small puddles, as someone was jogging in. I looked over to see Josiah. He walked over to me and I led the way in. We walked over to the check in and got visitor passes. I followed him to his aunt's new room.

"I'll go down to the Cafeteria and grab something to eat while you talking okay?"  Josiah said before hugging me and disappearing. I was a bit nervous. Why would I be nervous, she is unconscious. It's not like she can talk back. I walked into the room to see a nurse sitting by the bed talking.

"Girl, he had the nerve to tell me that he'd never seen her a day in his life. But the bitch was in his face on my damn bed-" The nurse paused as soon as she realized that I walked in.

"Oh I'll give you sometime to speak to your family member." she said as she grabbed her lunch, leaving me with Auntie Ann. I was about to call out for her, I actually wanted to hear this tea.

I stood there awkwardly for about five minutes before I sucked in my confidence and sat next to the woman. She looked so uncomfortable. Tubes were coming in and out of everywhere. I took the time to stare at her. She kind of looked like Josiah, so I'm guessing he looked like his mom.

"Hello-No, Hey Auntie Ann. My name's Trinity I don't know if you remember me. But I'm Josiah's Girl-Ex Girlfriend. Well we met once when we were together and you told me that Whenever I needed help dealing with Josiah, that I could speak with you...I know I am perfect with my timing, right?" I stopped and giggled nervously at this cliché moment that I was creating.

"Well, I need help dealing with Josiah. I love him a lot. But I also despise him at the same time. It's like before he was in my life I was shy, nerdy and boring. But he brought me out of my shell he made me brave and He Took His Time With Me, I hate him for that not because he's forced me to do anything it's because he's changed me.  He's such an amazing guy with his flaws but it's like I can't see myself getting back with him...But You Don't Know How Bad I Want To. But there's always a problem-" I stopped talking feeling tears about to fall from my eyes. I swear my period has me on an emotional rollercoaster.

"When I say problem, I mean bumps in the road. At first it was my own insecurities and his ignorance right, then we were great, like we were best friends. Anywhere you saw him you saw me and vice versa. Then we had that acceptance period where we just ignored the past issues and got together but then came Kim and Ashleigh, then We got passed that. But, Josiah and his damn pride came in the way. He was so blind trying to show the world that he's not like his father. But he's nothing like his father at all. Certain things he does, yeah he's just like him. But he's not the same you know? Well of course you know." I stopped and took a deep breath.

"Now, that I think about it. I don't really know what the problem is now. I mean I love him and he loves me, right? Yeah he does. But what's holding me back from commiting to him?" I asked as I spoke to my hands.

"Child you scared of another problem-Shit my damn throat dry." a hoarse voice mumble.

"Oh my God! I got to get the doctor." I spoke. I threw my jacket on the chair and ran out to see Josiah sitting across from the door. I ran over to the nurse's station.

"Trinity!" Josiah called out sounding worried.

"Um, she was in a coma and now she's up and she just talked to me." I said pointing to the room. The nurse paged a doctor and a staff of them ran into the room. I followed behind them. I felt someone text to me. I looked to see Josiah.

"Why'd you get them? She woke up. She's fine." He said. I looked at him and say the hope and happiness in his eyes.

"Josiah, it's just for precaution. Just making sure everything is good before we start celebrate her waking up." I said. He looked down at me and nodded. We sat in a small waiting area, we sat in complete silence. We shared a couple of glances but we said nothing.  We were both nervous. It was then the doctor walked out. My initial thought was to be prepared for the worst, you know so that the good news would make me feel better. Josiah grabbed my hand and I squeezed it signaling to him that I'm here for him.