Chasing the Chaos

Ch. 6

I heard a tap on the window and I quickly looked at my window which was connected to a balcony. There stood Autumn and I let her come in and I just stared at her.

"What are you doing here" I asked her and Autumn just plopped down on my bed.

"I was bored" Autumn just shrugged her shoulders acting like it was no big deal but it was. My house had a gate and it has a passcode and if you don't get it then the police will be notified so it worried me that she was here in my house or in my room easily.

"How" I asked her and Autumn just tilted her head.

"Oh, please, it's not hard to hack into a security system" Autumn just said to me and I slowly nodded my head.

"Yeah because I do it all the time" I rolled my eyes at Autumn and she just sighed while she started throwing a ball up and down while lying down on the bed.

"This is the most comfortable bed I've been in" Autumn said and we both laid down on the bed staring at the ceiling.

"Yeah" I responded to her while I played some music to cover up from the screaming going on downstairs at the moment. We both faced towards each while in bed. Autumn was smiling a little bit at me. Autumn didn't have on her glasses but I could appreciate how pretty she was looking right now. I heard the banging of the door and it was my father who was sounding drunk. Autumn quickly got up from my bed and I looked panic and pushed her into the closet. I just stood in my room and I opened the door and I was instantly met with the stench of alcohol on his clothes, breath.

"Dad" I called him and Dad pushed his way into my bedroom. "Is everything okay" I asked him and Dad just chuckled.

"Your mother thinks I should lay off you" Dad spat out to me while making me back up into a wall. I was nervous and I could tell that he had no emotions right at this moment. I was waiting for him to hit me. I wasn't going to talk back because that wouldn't do anything at all. "It's funny how I raised you but you still nothing but a weak ass person. I wish you would play sports and not be a disappointment" Dad walked out of my room and I sighed before locking my bedroom door and I was relieved that he didn't touch me because I was still in pain from before. The closet door opened and there stood Autumn rubbing her hands and we both sat down on the bed. We didn't say anything; we were both staring in front of us. I felt Autumn's hand on mine and she smiled a bit at me. I knew that we held hands for comfort for both of us and I was beyond glad about that.

"I'm sorry" Autumn apologized and I nodded because that was her way of saying she was sorry for what just happened.

"I'm sorry" I told her too and Autumn placed her head on my shoulder while the music still being played in the background.

"We are going to be totally messed up when we are older aren't we" Autumn whispered to me and I just nodded my head.

"It's impossible considering who is raising us" I said to her and Autumn just shook her head.

"I refuse to be anything like my mom and dad" Autumn lifted her head off my shoulder and forced me to look at her eyes. We were sitting across holding each other's hands.

"Let's make a pact" Autumn told me and I just nodded my head. "To not be our parents" Autumn took out her pinky and I took mine and we swung it together.

"Promise" We both said at the same time and just like that Autumn waved bye at me but not before she popped her head back into my room.

"Hang out at mine" Autumn invited me to her house and I nodded my head.

"Sounds like a deal" I told her and I watched Autumn hopped off the balcony before rushing off into the darkness of the night. The moon was out and shining on Autumn's face. I closed my blinds and I laid back on my bed and I just sighed but I held a smile on my face and I turned on my side looking at all my posters and I turned off the music before going to the bathroom and I stared at myself in the mirror. I hated my hair and my face in general. Maybe my father was right, if I wasn't so weak then maybe I wouldn't be hated on. I wanted to be away from this town. I heard a knock on my door and I answered my bedroom door and there stood my mom and she hugged me tight and I hugged her back. It felt nice to have gotten a hug from her. It had been so long and she handed me glasses.