Figuring it Out (A Rickian Story)

Truths and Guesses

The next morning - Kian's POV

I wake up completely enveloped by Ricky. He gave me everything I asked for last night, the best cuddle of my life and complete understanding and love. I feel so safe and secure when he's around and so unbelievably loved. I feel good about what we did last night, like Ricky finally understands how I feel about him and yet I'm scared. This is a strange new world I am in, having sex with another guy, and I have no idea what I am doing. The touches feel right but strange and I am not sure I feel ready to take the next step? Should I talk to Ricky? Our relationship has always been based on complete honesty but I don't want him to worry. How about Connor? Could he help? The truth is I seriously think Connor may be gay. Ricky and I totally disagree on this. But Connor has been so into helping me so far, even helping setup last night and I just get this vibe. Then again, I'm the one sleeping with my best friend, another guy, and I don't know what the hell I am. I dwell on confusing thoughts until Ricky begins to stir and I see his eyes flicker.

"Good morning goofball; I love you." I say with a smile. He leans up and kisses me but then smirks.

"I love you too but that is not the freshest kiss I've ever had." He replies.

"How do you feel?" I ask with some trepidation. He runs a hand along my side, tenderly across my chest and lingers on my package for a few seconds.

"I feel awesome and so ready to return the favor from last night. Can we spend the day in bed?" Ricky asks.

"I'd kind of like that too but we both have videos to work on and things to get ready if we are going to Europe." I respond. When did I become the responsible one?

"How but something quick?" he asks with thirsty eyes.

I kiss him on the forehead and detach to his protests. "How about something long and fun in your room tonight?" I respond, "No pressure but good luck topping my room setup from last night."

"You mean Connor's room setup from last night..." he responds. We both laugh as I stand and head for the bathroom.

After doing my business, I call back to Ricky, "Speaking of Con da bon, is it ok if I take him to lunch today? I want to get...um...some advice"

"Of course. You and Conrad are close friends. I'm never going to be jealous or something like that. You don't have to ask...but you know, if it's about us, we can talk about anything." He replies.

"Of course we can and we will...tonight...I just need a little perspective." I say.

Ricky gets up, giving me a full show, which I enjoy and finds his pants. He pulls out his wallet and hands me sixty dollars. "Take him somewhere nice on me...he deserves it for all he's done for us. But your not going to bug him about who he's dating are you?"

"I will TRY not to," I respond with a smirk. I give Ricky a big embrace before we head for separate showers.

After we shower and dress Ricky and I sit on the couch together, editing, and kind of waiting. There's no-one home. I guess JC is with Lia and I don't think Connor came home last night. It seems Connor's new girlfriend or boyfriend may be both away and in LA often. We finally breakdown and have breakfast as Connor comes rushing in, wearing clothes from yesterday and clearly not showered.

"And where were you last night?" Ricky asks.

"Just at a friends." Connor replies as he rushes by. "Sorry guys. I hope your night was special. I've got to shower and change quickly. I have a meeting with Andrew about the tour in less than an hour." He heads upstairs.

Ricky and I look at each other, trying to figure out the mystery. Just then my phone rings and it's Trevor. He sounds upset.

"Kiki, can you two meet me at Panera by my place in forty minutes? I've got a big problem and I need to talk. Oh and I think I know who Connor is dating and I don't like it at all."