All This Time (Destiel, Sabriel and Michifer AU)

1 year to gay

Gabriel

Gabriel was sure it was a prank. A horrible, dark and twisted prank, but still a prank. But the Doctor's face was somber, and the nurse's sympathy genuine as she leaves to talk to Sam. 

He was going to die. 

Never had Gabe thought that this would be how he went. By illness. Whenever he'd thought about it, he'd just assume he'd die of old age with Sammy. Maybe death by pranking... but not this. 

A numb feeling spreads throughout his body. He wasn't scared, sad or worried. He was just... numb. It was too much, he didn't want to die.

Castiel came in soon after, Lucifer next to him. Both of them were crying. He couldn't remember the last time he saw Lucifer cry. Poor Castiel looked like he was ready to break down completely. Oh his poor brother... and still he felt numb. 

Lucifer hugged him, telling him that everything would be okay. Playing the role of the big brother to the T. Cas just cried, clinging to him as he begged Gabe to be okay, as if Gabriel had the power to simply snap his fingers and be better. 

Then Dean came to the door, behind was a broken looking Sam. His Sammy. A pang of pain breaks through the numb feeling. Oh his poor Sammy. 

"Hey... uh... guys...?" Dean coughs, clearing his throat. 

Cas and Lucifer both look up, their expressions that understanding as they saw Sam. They stand, squeezing his hands once before leaving the room. Gabriel watched as Dean leans over and whispers something to Sam, who only nods. 

Then he left, leaving Sam and Gabriel alone.

Gabriel didn't know what to say. What could he say? He couldn't even stand the thought of Sam dying, let alone imagine what it felt like. He knew that if the tables were turned, he'd be absolutely wrecked. So he just pats the seat next to him, an emotional lump forming in his throat.

Sam walks over silently, tears still falling. He takes the seat and just stares at Gabe. He looked so lost, as if he too didn't know what to say. 

"So... tough luck huh?" Gabriel finally breaks the silence, wincing as his voice breaks. 

Sam shook his head, crying harder as he grabs Gabe's hand. "It's not fair." His voice broke too.

***

The room was dark when Gabriel woke up. He eyes quickly adjusting to it as he looked around. Strangely enough, the first thing he found himself thinking was 'is there any ghosts here?' Then he saw Sam sleeping on the uncomfortable plastic chair and immediately felt for his giant fiance. 

Sam looked terrible. There was no sugar coating it. His skin was pale, there were dark shadows under his eyes and even in sleep his face was tight with worry. Worry over Gabriel.

'I'm going to die.' Those words still felt weird to think, he'd known for a while that there was a high chance, but still... they rang hauntingly through his head. He was going to die, he was going to miss out on growing old with Sam, miss out on seeing his nephews and nieces. Everything. 

Was he going to spend this last year wallowing about sadly? Certainly not, he didn't want to have the others remember him as a sad mess that spent each moment terrified of dying. 

No, this next year was going to be amazing. He would go out with a bang and that was that. He was Gabriel, The Trickster. He wasn't one to go quietly. He would go out in the amazing style that his gay ass did best. 

Sam stirred briefly in his sleep, before settling back down with his neck in an unnatural position.

Okay, so one year of gaying it up, he could totally do this.

***

"Lucifer, I swear to dad if you don't give me my Sammy back, I will end you," Gabriel glared at his older brother, who was currently sitting on top of Sam's back with a smug position.

"Nah, I'm good," the older boy patted Sam's head. "He's my Sammy now."

Gabriel gasps, placing a hand over his heart. "How dare you."

"Uh... guys? You do realize that I'm actually my own person...?" Sam was wriggling under Lucifer.

"Shush Samuel, let the adults talk."

"Don't shush him!" Gabriel sits up straighter in the bed.

The door swung open then, reveling Dean and Ben. "Why the fuck is Lucifer on top of Sam?"

"Bitch, I knew he was a top," Balthazar steps in behind Dean.

"Both of you need to watch what you say around the baby! Dont swear so much, jesus christ." Cas came in last.

"No, I'm Balthazar." Balthy says very seriously, raising an eye at his brother who was currently opening and shutting his mouth while he glared at Balth.

"Well, I was going to say that the normal ones were here.... but yeah, I can see my mistake there," Gabe sighs, leaning back in the bed. "What brings you all to my humble abode?"
"We brought candy," Dean threw the bag onto the bed. "And a baby."

"Dean, you cannot give Gabe Ben." Cas states dryly, taking the chubby one year old off the other man. "Do you want to give him diabetes?"

"Ben, or Gabe?"

Castiel closes his eyes, breathing out slowly in what could only be described as frustration.

Gabriel grinned at his weird family, loving just how normal interactions like this were. There really wasn't anything like a death sentence to make you appreciate the things you once took for granted.

Realizing he had zoned out, Gabriel refocused on them to see Sam smothering Lucifer with putty (Gabriel would be lying if he said he wasn't interested in where that came from), Dean was helping hold Luci down and Cas was holding Ben while looking like he wanted to murder them all. Balthazar had taken a seat next to Gabe.

"You feeling okay bro?" He nudged Gabe gently, a rare look of genuine feelings on his face.

Gabe nodded, feeling anything but, "yeah." He had to be okay, he had a whole year to make memories, love Sammy and live it up.

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So... my updates are far apart I know, but it would be okay if it was only my study I had to worry about (I'm studying IT full time, yay). But I'm also job hunting, house hunting (long story) and was outed as Bi at home which is making things difficult with home life (another long story)

So yeah, I'll try to update when I can, sorry for the delays! I hope y'all are staying cool/warm depending where you are, its soooo cold here rn  ❄❤❤