All This Time (Destiel, Sabriel and Michifer AU)

Everything will be alright

The hospital was sterile, and Sam was really sick of the constant smell of disinfectant. He spent hours sitting in the same horrible plastic chair, moving only to use the bathroom or grab a drink of coffee. 

He hadn't eaten in over 34 hours, and didn't plan to either. He felt sick, and the pitying look of the nurses that went by didn't help.

Dean and Cas came by a lot, but Dean always ended up heading home to look after Ben while Cas stayed out of worry for his little brother.

Lucifer and Michael hung around all the time, Lucifer abnormally quiet and subdued, his eyes sad.

Sam couldn't bare to think about Gabriel. His amazing, bubbly, candy loving fiance, lying still on a hospital bed and hooked up to a dozen machines.

Just that thought brought the painful lump back to his throat, tears clouding his vision as he leans forward in the seat and ran his fingers through his hair.

What was wrong with his Gabe?

///Flashback///

Sam chuckled as Gabe snuggled closer, mumbling in his sleepy state.

"Come on Gabey, I think it's time for bed."

"Can we snuggle there?" Gabe asked, blinking tiredly up at Sam.

"Of course," Sam kisses his forehead before standing up.

Gabe bounced up, smiling again, and turned to race Sam to the bedroom when he suddenly grabbed his head.

"Gabe? Are you okay?" Sam asked with a tinge of worry.

"I'm fin-" Gabe didn't get a chance to finish, and Sam sprung forward as his fiance collapsed without warning.

"Gabe?" Sam held him close, worry raging in him

No reply, Gabriel was pale and silent.

"G-Gabey? Please be okay," Sam's tears begin to fall now, hugging Gabe tight.

With a slow brain and fumbling fingers, he grabs his phone and shakily calls for an ambulance.

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So far there had been no news on Gabriel's health, the doctors and nurses had been vague in any answer past the usual, 'you can't see him yet.'

Sam was sick of it, he wanted to see Gabriel and make sure he was alright. He was scared, scared of losing Gabriel. He couldn't imagine how bad that pain would be, it would kill him.  

Rubbing at his now stinging eyes, Sam felt like everything inside him was cracking and falling apart under the crushing pain in his chest. He didn't want to lose Gabe, he couldn't, it was too much. 

He didn't realise that he was crying until he felt the wet tears drop down onto his bare arms, and that was when he broke. Tears poured down his cheeks, quiet sobs racking his body as he tried to breathe. His chest felt tight, and all he wanted was for the pain to end.

"Sammy? How are you holding up?" Dean walked over to him, coffee in hand. 

Sam didn't know how to respond, he felt tired, and sick. So he stayed silent, eyes doing all the talking for him.

Dean sighed, sitting down on the seat next to Sam's. "It'll be alright Sammy, Gabe will be okay, you'll see."

Sam looked over to the nurses station, eyes downcast. 

"They know nothing, Sam, don't worry about them," Dean patted his shoulder. 

Sam could see the worry in his brother's eyes though, he wasn't dumb. He could also see the way the nurses kept looking over at him, and the pitiful gazes from the other people in the waiting room that visited often. 

Everywhere he looked, there seemed to be pitying stares and it was getting too much. Gabriel wasn't dead so why were they all looking at him like that? Gabriel would be fine. He stood up, wobbling on weak legs. He wasn't sure where he wanted to go, but he did know that it was anywhere but there, where all he got was stares, no answers. 

He couldn't find it in himself to be able to speak, so instead he just ran. He ran down the white corridors, past patients and nurses alike. He couldn't breath, couldn't think, and couldn't feel anything as he ran. He kept running, even after he got through the front doors, he kept running.

But he couldn't outrun the pain that was wrapping its way around his heart. Because even in his denial, he knew the truth.

He was going to loose the love of his life.

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A/N:

Wow, what's this? I'm actually updating? 

I hope y'all enjoy these updates, I'm trying to get back into writing but it has been a long and constant fight. I wanna get this story back on track, and finished I suppose. I do have more fanfic ideas, and will be posting the synopsis for them later in this book so you guys might get a say in what I do next ^_^

Until next time!

Peace out, wayward readers 🌈😇🌈