Infamous [Seulmin ff]

Chapter 18 Sad Reality

A day passed, after that night I'm still on my place still finding any clues about my past life, and I'm still eager to find and regain my memories.

yesterday, is the last day me and Jimin had a conversation, and it's bugging my head right now. The wound in my heart is still fresh and It's so hard for me, I don't even think if I'm able to see him after what happened. I never expected that it will turn out this way,
If only I have the powers to turn back the time, I'll do it now In order for me to correct the things that I've done.
But let's face reality I don't have that kind of power, And it's so unfair to all the people.

"What have done has already done" I can't undo it now.
So, I'll just face reality and start living the way it should.

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I sat down the chair on the table and waited for my order to come, I'm currently in the Starbucks waiting for my cappuccino frappe coffee. I grab my phone on my pocket and check it out for any messages,

*1 message*

And it was from..

Unknown number

*Hello, I'm Jeon Wonwoo. I'm from the last night, remember? And can you also remember that you agve me your phone number last night? I hope you have a good day*

'What?' I was startled a little bit
it was from Wonwoo,
How did he... Get my number?
*Ahhh, I gave him my number last night....

Wait what,
I gave him my number? I was confused, but I don't remember giving him my number.
Why can't I remember that,
Ok, don't panic

Then, Someone popped up on my phone and it was a text.

*I'm just kidding, I took your number from the fill up when I delivered a box for you, I'm sorry. I promise I just took it now and I really don't have a plan to save it. Only because I saw you yesterday and You seem fun to hang out, with all your face when you were crying. Joke! BTW, nice meeting you yesterday, I'm sorry I haven't had a proper goodbye for you since something urgent really came up.*

See, I didn't have him my number,
'Psh that guy, it's really obvious that he like me, as a friend, let's not jump into conclusion, maybe he's just friendly that's why he comforted me yesterday and it really helped me a lot.

I felt comfortable and ease, I can feel less hurt yesterday when he comforted me, he was like my father, he was like a home that I can't worry about everything negative in the world, because he was there like a home that shelters me from all the harm and pain.

*Okay, I won't mind that, let's just say It's a give and take relationship, you*

*Made me feel comfortable yesterday,
No,no, no, he'll feel comfortable the next time we talk again, (erase)

*Okay, I won't mind that, let's just say It's a give and take relationship, you gave me your help yesterday and I gave you my number*

Sent

My order came up and I took it, Then I placed my phone on the table and took a sip on my coffee.

Then my mood swings again,

I felt like crying now, the picture of me with Jimin keep replaying on my vision,
I need to stop it now before I began to cry.
Then there it is, a single drop of tear drips on my face, I wiped it using my handkerchief but my tears keeps on falling and I continued wiping it off,

luckily there's no one in here, except for me and the ladies on the counter.

Then I burst into crying,

Why would I have to experience this kind of situation, I don't want to feel this way, why would I have to feel this kind of emotion. I feel like I'm so weak and powerless.
I wanted this to stop and wanted to forget all the memories we had,

It's funny that I've amnesia and I want my memories to return but I also want to forget some memories I made.
I feel down and sad right now, I can feel I don't have the energy to walk or stand.
I really thought that there's something going on between us, we both kissed and hugged, we almost had sex and then it turned out I have false hopes, that He didn't feel the same way I feel about him.

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Seulgi began to cry all those pain in her heart, no one was there to comfort her, the only thing she can do is to comfort herself.
She also don't want someone seeing her crying and being weak.

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She wanted him, but he don't want her. She loved him, but he don't care. It's the sad reality between a one sided relationship, and the thing that is really hard, is that, you'll feel sad and you'll cry all day. Someone will judge you and they'll see you as a weak person. You'll feel all the pain but he will never feel the same way as you do. No matter what you say, no matter how many tears you loose, no matter how many effort you do. If he don't love you, He don't love you.
The only thing you can do, is to move one, and forget all your love for him, because no matter what you do, you can't make him fall for you.

Just move on and love yourself instead, because the only thing you can do is to focus on yourself first.
Other thinks that you'll just need to change and make that person regret that he didn't chose you, but it's wrong.
It's their hearts will and not their mind, don't blame them why they can't love you back, no one can't teach someone to love anyone in just a single snap, because love don't have a reason and it takes time for you to realize that.

Don't try convincing anyone to love you, because there's a perfect one for you that whenever how much you tell him you love him he'll do the same.

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