Infamous [Seulmin ff]

Chapter 19 Love or Leave

Love is waiting,
Love is caring,
Love is always there, preparing someone to experience it.

But Love is also hurting.
Love is also leaving,

Leaving someone is the most painful thing anyone would experience, you will feel sad, down, depressed, and you will feel less important and you will feel that no one loves you.

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Seulgi was there in her room, preparing herself to start a new day, it was gonna be another busy day for her,
The sky was full of gray clouds and it seems it'll rain, the cold wind is having a fast pace going with no direction, the darkness outside seems terrifying but it's calm without lightning, and growling in the sky.

Dark clouds has 2 meanings, it's either to say that in every bright or happy day, there will be a dark or problem in the end, but the other one says, that in every way possible their is always a shining sun behind the dark clouds.
Life is full of happiness, and problems,

God won't give you a problem if he knew that you wouldn't surpass it.

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Jimin was busy in his room packing all of his stuffs, he was ready to leave Busan but he wasn't ready to leave Seulgi.

I was in my room packing my things, but there's still a lot of thoughts in my mind ongoing right now, including Seulgi,

I once lost her, but I found her,
I once found her but I lost her.

Sad but its true, I was thinking of leaving Busan for my career in Seoul, my friends was there, my family was there, and now is the right time to go back to the place where I belong.
I belong there and I don't belong here with Seulgi,

I haven't talked to her yet, I haven't seen her yet, but I think it's the best for the both of us.

She didn't knew I was her past Boyfriend and she haven't regain her memories yet. I decided that if I leave her, she wouldn't fall for me and we can stop this bullshit, I know it wasn't a bullshit because I love her and she loves me,
But it was wrong choosing to stay with her,
I lied that I was just her friend, I didn't chose to find her when she was lost.

What if she regain her memories back? what will happen to us, she will hate me for being a shit at the times where I was supposed to be with her,

But I was a bullshit and I decided to leave. If she regain her memories I won't see her cry, she won't continue to love me because I'm going to leave her and she won't fall deeper for me.

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When she came back here I was happy, I felt that I was in heaven seeing her again. But there's consequences, she can't remember me, and she don't love me anymore, because I wasn't there with her for 2 years, she can't remember my identity, she can't remember all the memories we made.
The only thing she knew is that we're just friends.

I want to stay, but I have to leave.

Seulgi must hate me, it was wrong loving someone like me because I'm a bullshit, I have to set her free.

I wasn't destined to be with her and fate is my proof.

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It's 10 already, I took my baggage out of my room.

I'm gonna miss this room, I've stayed here for almost 3 years and I like being in here, but I also have to think about my future.

I'm going to Seoul for my studies and my career. I'm wearing a black hoodie, pants, and white high-cut converse. I took my baggage out of the room, then for the last time I stared at it,
"Goodbye"

I went out of the room closing the door behind me.

I went infront of Seulgi's room,
"Goodbye, My Love"

Finally, I took an envelope in my pocket and placed it under the door,

I took a step backwards, stared at the door and smiled a little,

I started to walk and went outside of the building,
I waited for a few minutes, finally, Taehyung arrived and fetched me here,

Goodbye, Busan.

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Seulgi was about to go out of the room when she noticed an envelope under her door, she picked it up and opened it.
She red the letter,

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I wish you'll found your own happiness soon, and please don't think that you're the reason why I left, it was because I have more things to focus on.

I hope that you'll found and regain your memories back, and I hope you can find the person you are Destined to be with, and I'm sure it wasn't me.

Goodbye and farewell Seulgi,
Love, your friend,
Park Jimin.

A tear forms in my eyes after reading the letter,

It was from Jimin, and this thing. I also didn't expect that it'll turn out like this again.

I never knew that, the person who will break my heart and hurt me so much are The same person under the name of Park Jimin,

Well, I can't blame him for leaving me. The choice is not on my hands, it was his choice and I need to respect that.

I burst into crying and my whole body weakened,

I was drowned by my emotion that I can't even think properly.

When I came back to my senses, I hurriedly went out of my room and hurriedly went to his room but there's no response, then I went outside the building,

I looked for any sign of Jimin but he wasn't here anymore,

I looked for a cab, luckily there's a cab and I took it asked to go to the airport.

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She arrived there, only to found out that the plane already had take off 10:50 am, and it's already 10:55.

Her whole body stiffened, and her whole energy was faded away, and a tear fell from her eyes and she cried,

"Bye, Jimin"

She started to walk outside and looses all her hopes,

She patiently waited and then Took another cab.

On the other hand Jimin was still on the road since they stopped by and went to the Market since Taehyung want to buy earphones and also their flight will start at 12,

After a few minutes they already arrived at the airport, they went inside the airport bringing their bags and luggage.

Jimin suddenly saw Seulgi walking, he first didn't believe his eyes, he walked near her but it's too crowded and he lost her,

"Yahh, Jimin-hyung help me here" Taehyung interrupted, Jimin then, turned back to Taehyung and helped him with the luggage,

He still looked at the direction,

"What are you looking at hyung?" Taehyung asked,

"Uhh, nothing" Jimin focused on walking instead and ignored what he saw, believing it wasn't true and just an illusion of his mind.

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The end.

( You actually thought they're gonna meet right? )

But no, they didn't. So byee this is the end.

Sometimes not everyone has a happy ending.😉