Infamous [Seulmin ff]

Chapter 17 Comfort

Sorry, I haven't updated for a month. I'm just literally busy and I was drawn to a lot of things.
Ok, here's the Chapter 17

I stiffened at the place and just stared at him waiting for any response but he hasn't made a single response or gesture and just continue doing what he was doing.

Wait, did he just ignored me!?
I didn't expect that Jimin will just ignore my words or in the other mean, he ignored my feelings.
After a few minutes he burst into laughter, I was startled and chuckled awkwardly, I continued staring at him,

"Hey, stop joking around it's not funny anymore" He caught his breath
My smile completely fades away,
His words were like a knife and it feels like it stabbed me a thousand times. It was painful, unexpected and it was heartbreaking.

I'm still staring at him, he was giggling. My mood just changed, I can feel a tear forms in my eyes.
I glared at him, I rolled my eyes at him and turned around.
I started to walk away but suddenly he grabbed my arms and pulls me and I faced him
"Wait, are you really serious?" He asked and I can feel my face was now fully red from anger
"I mean, why do you love me? What did I do? Why me-"
And then that's it, It snapped my soul and made me slap him unexpectedly, a hot liquid falls from my eyes. I felt so sad and broken, I can feel my energy fade, my feet feel weak and my heart feels so heavy.
I didn't realize I can do that, I really didn't expect that Jimin would do this thing to me, I felt betrayed by 2 people, by Jimin and by myself.
"Am, I- a joke to you? Do you think I was joking anymore, are you dumb? Or just an idiot. Can't you differentiate a joke from reality?"
My voice was shaking, I noticed his emotions changed and he was serious this time.
I turned around and started to run away, I heard him shout my name but I just ignorye him and continued running.
The tears from my eyes were escaping non-stop, it was so hard for me, I told myself to stop crying and I ended up at the park, luckily there are no people here at the side, I sat down at the bench and I'm just letting my emotions flow.

Fuck,
Park Jimin, a name, a person I didn't know who'd break my heart and I didn't expect him to do this to me. It was just like a dream to me, it was a dream for me to meet him at the place where I'm supposed to do something else, and meeting a man is not one of my plans. If feels like, I was enchanted  or fated to meet him, but it was an ill-fated one.

I noticed a person was walking towards my direction, I looked at him and I met his gaze, his eyes were beautiful. I can't fully see his face because it was dark. He handed me his handkerchief and I just stared at it
"Just took it, it looks like you need it more than I do and I'm not a bad person nor a pervert" His voice was deep,
I slowly took it and wiped my tears.
He just turned around and plan to walk when I interrupted him.
"Hey, Please spare me a few minutes I just wanted to talk to someone right now-"
He stopped and turned around, I can notice he was staring at me,
"And I'm not a bad person nor a pervert" I continued
I giggled a little bit,
"Please" I kinda begged a little,
I moved to the side and luckily he started to walk towards me and sat on my side,
My tears are still not stopping and I continue to wipe it.
"I don't know what happened to us, I thought that he also love me, we were happy and I can see that through his eyes, I can feel that he also love me but it was a rip-off when he asked me if I was joking, Fuck that, does he have a heart of stone, can't he feel that I love him, he was like a precious stone to me but I was just like a rock to him, are you dumb?, can't you see there's a gem inside that stone in front of you"
I continue to sob,
And he was still listening,
"Maybe that's just how the world really works, People are too dumb that even if there's a gem in front of them they still ignore that and continue to find another gem that's much prettier than the other, they didn't even know that, Fuck it was fake and I'm the real one, in front of you but you just chose to ignore me and chose that fake gem. I love him genuinely, but I think he doesn't love me back and it freaking annoy me cause Fuck, this feeling why is it that I have to experience and suffer like this"
I continued wiping my tears,
"Maybe he doesn't realize you're a gem because you're covered with dirt"
He suddenly spoke,
"What is that suppose to mean?" I asked
"Okay, I'm not gonna hide under the bush and tell you this frankly, In this world, if you love an idiot person that makes you an idiot too, can't you understand? he only sees you as a rock because for him you're just a rock. To tell you the truth he doesn't love you because he doesn't love you, isn't that hard to understand. He'll never see you as a precious stone because he chose not to look at you"
His words made me even sad and I cried even a lot,
I was shocked when a pair of hands wrapped around me and hugged me. I can feel his warmth around me and it made me feel comfortable and it made me stop crying, I was shocked, I looked at him closely, his face was familiar but I ignored it,
His perfume has a nice scent, his arms were fit and he was comfortable to hug,
we just stayed at that place and I can feel so much comfort with him.