Infamous [Seulmin ff]

CHAPTER 3. Park Jimin

Jimin's P.O.V. (Before) After the accident,

I opened my eyes, I noticed a tiny hose in my nose and in my right hand, my body is aching a little bit,
I scanned around the place, I'm at the hospital.

Half of my body was covered in a white blanket,

I heard the door opened and immediately turns my attention to the person who entered my room,

It was my mother together with the doctor, they were having a conversation until my Mom noticed that I'm already awake, she almost fell running towards me,

She kneeled on the floor to have an eye level on me, her eyes were red and she was crying,
I couldn't stop myself from crying too, seeing my mom crying makes me in pain,

She wiped my tears using her hands,
"My son, you're awake now".
I nodded a response.

I asked if Seulgi is fine, she didn't respond and cried even more,
I was nervous at the moment and a feeling came, a feeling that something is wrong,
"Mom where's Seulgi?" She didn't respond.
"Mom, Mom!" I almost yell,

hot liquid suddenly drips in my cheeks, I notice that I'm starting to cry.
"H-her mom said sh-she passed away," My mom said stuttering, I can't believe what I heard,

That sentence pierced and broked my heart pieces by pieces. I cried even harder,
"Mom, it-its not true, we even had fun the last-" A memory appears, a memory of the time when Seulgi got hit by a car,
I was thinking that we had fun that day and it ended up so horribly.

"Mom, it-its not true" my voice was shaking, My mom holds my hands,
Seulgi is not dead yet, I can feel that she's not dead yet, but my mothers' statement is something I need to believe, even if it really hurts me a lot.

A week passed and I'm still at the hospital, I have no energy to eat nor to live. I want to end my life, I tried to take my life but nothing works, it seems that Seulgi is not letting me do that
Until I realized doing this is not gonna make Seulgi and my parents happy, so I decided to live and pull myself together.
After a couple of months, I was fully recovered and got discharged by the doctor. Seulgi's parents went to Seoul to start a new life without Seulgi, it might be hard for them, I didn't even have the chance to see Seulgi for the last time, I heard they went to Seoul to have her funeral there together with her grandparents,

I came back to school, my friends are still there and we live our high school life. Doing things a high schooler should do. As my friends got there girlfriend, here I am being single and ready to be single forever, but maybe someday, I'll meet someone that's going to accept and love me as Seulgi does. Maybe someday, maybe someone. Bighit entertainment told me to have a vacation and study here for while, just to recover for my accident, they said they are willing to accept me whenever I'm ready and I can just go to the entertainment to see my friends training there whenever I want.

I became the president of the classroom,
That should be Seulgi if she was still here, I took everything after her, becoming the president of the classroom and being a top student.
I took Performing Arts and still studying, Seulgi is the main reason why I pursuing myself to study hard and graduate.

I admit that there are times that I was to give up, but seeing my parents make me choose living and Seulgi,
She's my Inspiration, she's my life and my everything. She might be dead but she's still living, living in my mind and heart, I won't ever forget about her.

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I woke up in the same bed, in the same bedroom,
I make myself ready and prepared my things. It's our anniversary of my girlfriend, August 23. I smiled,

After I make my things ready, I went to the dining table and ate my breakfast,

"Nothing changed here, it's still the same" I told the corridors of my school, I entered my classroom and was greeted by my friends, still the kids are still noisy and doing their personal stuff, I sat on my chair, plugged my earphones and listened to music, sometimes its just worth Ignoring them, it's my time to relax and listen to music. Music makes me calm and happy, these past few days I'm actually starting to find myself liking music. I'm now currently playing My Answer Is You by Exo.
A few minutes later our teacher came to our room, I'm a bit startled and immediately took my earphones off and stood up.
"Attention, Bow" I led
"Good Morning Teacher" students including me greeted and bow to our teacher in sync.
"Now, our lesson is about LIFE, I want you to draw something related to Life and present it Tomorrow," our teacher said.

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The Day in school ended, I went to the bakeshop near our school and took my ordered Blueberry Cheesecake happily, I heard the students gossiping how handsome I am while smiling, (Too bad I have a girlfriend and it's our anniversary today)
I ignored them since I'm already getting used to having everyone's attention since I became the top student in our school.
I went to the park and sat at the bench waiting for someone to come,
After a few minutes their she is, I smiled at her,
"Happy Anniversary!" Irene said,
I chuckled,
"Is it supposed to be happy?" She giggled a bit.
We sat down and started to eat the cake. We talk about some few kinds of stuff and things. After that, Irene take a leave and left me there,
"Happy Anniversary" I whispered, A sudden change of emotion I felt, I turned sad and tears are forming in my eyes, I let that drip over my cheeks, It's so hard for me, I'm still moving on and seems pretty hard to do it,
I look up to the sky and whispered,
"Happy Anniversary Seulgi".

It's 5:30,
I was crossing the road when I noticed a familiar woman standing in the middle of the road,
A vision of Seulgi Appeared, its the time when I failed to save her,
I immediately ran towards the girl and dragged her on the safest place,
I took a glance on her and I was startled to see Seulgi, my eyes widened,
I became emotional and hugged her if this is just a dream I'm so glad to see her.
I would be really happy if this is not just a dream,
"Are you doing fine?" I asked her.
"I am fine" she responded. She seems uncomfortable,
I couldn't stop myself and hugged her again, tightly this time, I really miss her so much, After all these years she finally appeared at my dreams
"I miss you!" I said, my emotion is now overflowing, I cried even more
"Do you know me? Do I know you?" She asked me
I release from the hug,
"I kn-" I was about to reply when a call suddenly interrupted us, she answered it. Something is wrong if this is just a dream, why is she answering the phone? I asked myself.
Then, this is not a dream.