Infamous [Seulmin ff]

Chapter 20 Rain

Seulgi was in the taxi when the rain started to pour down,
She was crying while looking outside the car's window,
It wasn't the day she expected, but it happened anyways and she felt that the world just turned around her.

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It's that day,
It's the moment,
It's the time,
It's the day that Jimin left me,
I didn't expect for this, but yet it happened.

He was my colors, and without him I know I will become colorless and go back to the old me,

The old me who is always alone,
Without friends,
Without anyone to talk to,
I will be back to my old life,
Boring, black and white, and lonely.

He was the great gift that I've received but he's not gonna stay forever, he has limits, I wish I should've knew it sooner, so that I should've make it most of all the seconds I'm with him, so that I can hold his hands and never let go of it, so that I can stop the time and be with him until the end.

But, he's gone anyways and I can't do anything to make him go back again.
All I have to do is to accept the fact that he's gone, and he's not going back, it hurts, but it's true.

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30 minutes later, I've already arrived at the front of my apartments building,
It was raining and I don't have umbrella,
I paid the cab and went out without getting mind of the rain,
It was cold, but I'm fine, I can handle it.
I let the rain pour on me, I started to walk and letted the rain drip through my whole body.
Somehow I can relate with the rain, the rain was sad and it was crying, maybe someone has also left him, maybe she was also in deep pain,
The rain also brings back nostalgic memories.

It was Me and Jimin, we're happy and both laughing, but my vision suddenly faded away, I cried.
I miss him,
I fucking miss him,

As the rain flowed down from my head to my feet,
From my head to my neck, the same as my tears was not stopping and still.
I reached the entrance of the building and I entered the building soaked with water,
As soon as some staff's of the apartment noticed me, they went right to me with towels and they noticed that I'm crying and they started to ask me why, I didn't respond and I cried even more,
"I'm fine" I said
The other lady was about to guide me when I spoke,
"Please, I can handle myself. Thanks for the assistance"
I walked and went to my room, I opened the door and went inside crying, I locked the door behind me,

I sat on my heels and began to cry even more,

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He became friends with me,
We laugh and began to hang out,
We kissed and hugged,
But,
He was gone now,
He leaves me alone,
He didn't cares about me,
And the worst is that,
He don't love me, he doesn't love me, he never loves me, he haven't loved me.

It was painful,
It wasn't what I expected but it happened.

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Seulgi went to the bathroom room and took a shower, the water flows together with her non-stopping tears falling down, she cried every single time, she stills remember all the fun and memorable things they done,

And it ended because of a simple confession,
And He ended it up with a single letter.

He didn't even told her that in face,

she didn't even had a proper goodbye,
She wanted to hug him for the last time, But she can't.

She stop taking a shower and changed her clothes, she began to feel her head aching, but she ignores it. What her heart feels is stronger than what her mind feels, her pain in her heart was strong enough to feel his whole body numb,
She can only feel the sadness, the heart breaking, the feeling of leaving someone, and the feeling of betrayal between herself.

She wore pajamas and sweatshirt and then she lied on her bed,

She covered her face with her blanket,
And the blanket becomes wet,
The only sound that can be heard in the whole room was her mourning and weeping.

Until after a few minutes she falls asleep.

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In the middle of the night, she began to feel cold and so, she layered herself up. She thought of having fever, but she ignores it. She came back to sleep again but soon wake up, as her head aches so much that she began to cry and shout in pain.

Gradually all her memories keep recalling into her mind and she falls asleep.

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Short, I'll add more tomorrow.