Infamous [Seulmin ff]

Confession 4

Jimins Pov.

I didn't listen to her and continued walking outside the room, I heard footsteps following.
I went far away from the classrooms and to the back building where no one can hear us talking, where there's no people.

We stopped when I reached a place where no one is around,
I stood up straight and turned facing her
"What now?" she asked while putting her hands crossed.

I'm really keeping these thoughts for a while now but finally, I'm able to say my feelings to her now.
I didn't know how it happened or when did it start, all I know is that I am feeling this excitement whenever I am with her, I am always thinking about her, and I always want to see her smile and with that it makes me smile too.
I think love her,

I wanted to be with her always and I'm sad when I'm not with her. What I've experienced in this past month is not going well, I'm not able to focus well on my studies and I'm definitely distracted, all I think is Seulgi and a series of question. Why did this happen to us? Why did that horrible experience turned out to be the most amazing thing happened to me. But I know, I will risk this time to tell her that I love her or at least ask her out and show her how she means to me, whether she says yes or no, as long as she means it, it's fine for me I will accept whatever her decision is, no regrets for me because I know that I tried. I just really wanted to let her know what I truly feel and it's still worth the try.

Here comes nothing

I took a deep breath and stared at her beautiful eyes, we meet each other gaze for a short period of time
She seems uncomfortable and she looked away,
I placed my hands to her face and slowly tilted it facing me,

"W-what did you think y-you're doing?" She said stuttering, she seems tensed up and trying to avoid eye contact, she keeps on looking away

"Seulgi, look at me in the eyes" I calmly said

"please!" I said whispering sincerely

she looked at me slowly,
My heart pounds so fast as soon as we met each other gaze,
Her eyes were truly beautiful

I gulped,

"I like you," I said,
I shaked my head
"No, I love you" I corrected myself
"I don't care what will happen, I don't care what will people think. The only thing that matters to me is you, us"
After a few seconds she said something,

"How can you be so sure about that" she replied seriously,
Then she broke the eye contact and turned around, then she started walking

Jimin think of something, Think fast she's leaving now

"T-The way-" is all I said not to mention I also stuttered. I looked at her while she stopped and turned around facing me,
I looked at her in eyes,
"The way you smile when you're with me, I can see that you love me. The way you blush talking to me, the way you stutter when talking me, and the way your heart beats when I'm with you, even if you don't admit it I know that you also feel the same way"
I moved closer to her and placed my hand over where her heart is and it was beating fast. I looked at her and she seemed shocked.

"I know that you also love me the way I love you"

"Will you date me?" She gave me a blank expressionless face that gave me the idea that she would definitely reject me, I lost all my hope and making myself ready to what her answer might be,
It took a few seconds for her to answer, until she finally said something,

"Okay," is the only word she said, then she turned around and started to walk away from me maybe returning to our classroom, But wait, did she just..... My heart skipped a beat.
Is that happening now?, did she really said those words, did she really said yes to me, am I really going to date her now? I can't believe she said that.
those are the questions came in my mind after she left me standing there, half of me still thinking of, is it not real, am I just dreaming? and half of me is saying yes I'm really dating her now?. I don't know what to think, I was lost in a place of nowhere.
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I'm now at the bleachers of our school field thinking about earlier, the students are playing football in the field, the weather is fine, and there's a couple of people at the other side of the bleacher, my mind is at peace until I remembered what happened earlier this morning. Well, what I told Seulgi is the truth. I have nothing to hide and nothing to regret.

What happened last month is that I really got to stare to her face so close and I almost kissed her that night, but that never happened to us.

Throwback
I roamed around the classroom since I don't have anything to do, I stared at the windows then at the table and then at the chairs and then repeat, I'm so weird this day
and I really don't know why, I hope I'm friends with Seulgi so I could talk to her now, but what I'm feeling now is total awkwardness,

After a few minutes, I guess she's tired and wanted to sleep because she rest her head unto my shoulder and I just let her, after that I also started to close my eyes and didn't notice I was fallen asleep,
I waked up as soon as I noticed that Seulgi moved and hugging herself maybe because of the cold, luckily I have my jacket now and I took it off trying not to disturb Seulgi and placed it on her back, as I put it on her, her head fell and I immediately caught her head and placed it back to my shoulder where it lays but I accidentally forced it causing her to look unto me, our face are now close to each other and I almost kissed her, I stared at her face,
She is pretty.
then I moved her head as the same as it is resting in my shoulder and then I decided to sleep, completely ignoring my heart pounding so fast.

end of the throwback.

I am still sitting at the bleachers and then someone came near me
"You looked happy, what happened?" It was Yoongi
I came back to my senses, am I smiling? I returned serious
"No-" I simply said then he smiled at me, he was catching his breath and he's drenched in his own sweat
"Stop lying jimin, I know you, what is it, is it girl?" WTF how does he know that it was a girl
"Ahhhh" he nodded
"You seemed shocked, did I just hit the bottom? I know you Jimin, so who's the lucky girl?" he sat beside me and I smiled forcely,
"Its none of your business, now get lost"
I tried to push him but he resisted and sprang back,
He placed his hand on my shoulders, and began to spit garbage words and try to act and speak like an expert
"You know, when it comes to girls. What they need is just love, care, support and you know" he smiled cockily
"What?"
"Satisfaction, give her your soul,"
He began to touch my chest
"money"
"attention"
"and your body" he whispered into my ears and quickly I felt shivers down my spine

I pushed him
"Go away you pervert, why are you so shy and introvert to others but telling me all the thought going on your most darkest mind" He laughed

"Go, I don't need you here," I said pushing him away from me,
"Okay, okay" so he stood up and moved down then he looked back at me

"but if you need me if you need some advice about girls you know where to go, and that's me since I'm an expert when it comes to things like that" he winked
"Stop dreaming and get lost"
"Seriously, if you want this to work, you only need is to man up. love and treat her like a woman a man should protect" then he slowly walked and he ran away going to his team.

I remember I should see Seulgi since we were going out now,

thinking of it makes me even excited.

Maybe she will think I'm not sincere when I'm not going to meet her and not proving myself to her. I stood up and I went to the classroom secretly.

I saw her
then I went downstairs and I decided to wait for her in the gate, and surprise her with my idea. I know this will work. I have a very good feeling about this.

End.