"You're alive to me, Taehyung." He let out a humorless chuckle and looked at me.
"Too bad they've killed me years ago."
Started: 07/14/19
Completed: 06/25/20
I felt myself being pulled closer as I silently cry. I'm sobbing at how I can't do anything about it, yet I never want to stop. Is it meant to be like this?
"I'm sorry too, Tae. I'm sorry because I feel the same. I'm so sorry that I feel something for you when I shouldn't have. But I can't help it. I can't." He froze as he held me while I clung on his ashen shirt.
And there I was, crying so hard because I lost him before I even had him.
"Stop crying, kitten. I don't want you crying." He wiped a few tears from my eyes as he smiled at me, a smile that's torn between triumph and sorrow. "We'll be fine, Y/N. We'll figure this out. We're gonna be fine."
"B-But how?" He clasped my cheeks and continued wiping my eyes. Slowly, a faint smile tugged on his lips.
"I don't know, kitten. But I don't want to think about it yet." He brushed a few strands of hair away from my face as he scanned my features. "When will you stop making me feel?" He whispered, his face close to mine.
"You make me feel like I'm living in a new world. You give me a new life, a new birth." I smiled at him, unsure of how to handle this whole thing but nonetheless enjoying every second. I trust him even though I know he doesn't know about the things he just said. He stared at my lips then back at my eyes only for them to drop back down. He looks unsure as I stared at him, anticipating his every move.
"Stop me." He mumbles and I felt the last oxygen got torn away from my lungs when he ran his thumb on my lips.
"What?"
"Tell me to stop now or I'll never be able to stop once I've kissed you." He squeezed his eyes tight as if restraining himself.
"U-Uh.. Stop?" I asked in an unsure tone.
"You're not doing a good job at stopping me, kitten." He breathes out as he opens his eyes again to land on my lips. He pulls me closer by my waist until his forehead is resting on mines. Every nerve of my body began to tingle to feel more of him. I began craving him even though I never had a taste of him in the first place.
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"Maybe because I don't want you to stop, Tae." A strong urge of confidence washed through me as I resounded my thoughts. I know I want this. I've always had. A small giddy smile made its way onto his lips.
"Kiss me, Taehyung."
"As my kitten wishes." He whispers.
Slowly, he parted his lips as his hands held me by my waist. His face inched slowly and I let my eyes close on their own. Then, his lips touch mines tenderly, melting me even more inside. His lips lock around my upper one, making my heart hurt in a good way. His hand enveloped my cheek as he tilted his head a bit to press his lips closer.
I'm kissing him.
Then there is a gentle movement, his lips moving against mines in a passionate way. My head tilted even more as I began to cave in, feel everything, and want more. He pulled me closer and I responded by wrapping my arms around his neck, atop of his broad shoulders. It wasn't rushed nor rough. It was gentle and he kissed me as if we have all the time in the world. He makes me savor every moment, every glide. And it feels magical. My heart pounds in my chest, responding to the touch of Taehyung. I couldn't help but smile despite the tears in my eyes as I thought of how much control Taehyung has over me. He's literally taking over me.
To my disappointment, he broke off to give me soft pecks. It was barely there, but the warmth it spreads inside me assured me that it's real.
"Y/N.." He called out. My name slipping softly against his lips that I just kissed. "I.. You.. God, you're perfect." He said in a whisper then buried his face in my neck. I smiled softly.
"So are you, Tae." I cuddled his head against my neck as we shared a desirable silence. Only my breathing and the soft sounds of his lips whenever he gives me soft kisses on my neck were heard.
For the first time in years, I felt genuinely happy and contented. Not because of a finished painting, a good grade, or a great payment. It's because of the lost soul caged in my arms as we find security in each other.
"If I ask you to stay with me forever.. Y/N, would you?" He asked in a silent voice, as if speaking any louder would tear the both of us from the scene we are in. I nodded without second thoughts.
"Of course. I will. As long as you'll have me." I felt him smile against me and nuzzled closer again.
"You're stucked with me forever then."
"I'd love that, Taehyung." He softly laughed and pulled away. He looked at me with so much admiration and beamed at me. I moved some strands of his hair away from his face.
"Let's get some rest, yeah?" He nodded and we padded hand in hand to my room with Yeontan trailing behind us. Taehyung stayed at my doorframe to turn off the lights as I prepared the bed.
"You can turn off the lights now." I said but he doesn't move. His handsome face looked unsure once again as he faced me, his fingers fiddling with the hem of his shirt like a little kid. For a second I thought he regret what he said and did but he doesn't. Atleast, I hope that he doesn't.
"Y-You'd still like me tomorrow, right?" I laughed lightly at his cuteness as I smiled at him.
"I will. I never won't." He let out a sigh of relief and turned off the lights. "Come here, baby." I said as he claimed his place with his head on my chest. He's undeniably admirable and I'm more than happy to have him. He giggled again as he rose his head up again to give me a kiss.
"I never thought it would end this way." He whispered as he plays with my fingers.
"So did I. But hey, I'm not complaining."
"I'm never going to leave your side, kitten." He whispers as he grew boneless against me. I gave his forehead a kiss and nuzzled in his hair.
"That, we don't have control of." I whispered back, defeated.
A/N: A little background about this book, this isn't originally supposed to be a Taehyung ff. It was originally written with the One Direction members as the characters bc I am a Directioner lol.
