Ashen || k.th.

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It was 2 am. 2 in the fucking morning and I'm on the floor, waiting for Taehyung, sobbing desperately. My heart wrenches so hard as the cold winter breeze pass through my windows. I am shaking but not because of the wind. I am shaking because for the first time, I feel Taehyung slipping away from me. I am slowly losing him and I don't know what to do about it.

I leaned my head on the wall as I sobbed and pulled at my hair. I never ran out of tears. My eyes were knackered, but they decided on showing my hurt. I was too occupied with my crying until the door opens. I felt the air knock out of my lungs as Taehyung's ashen figure appeared on the door. His eyes were in panic as they landed on my crying figure.

"T-Tae?" I choked on a sob as my rough voice rang through me. His lips parted and soon he's on the floor with me.

"Y/N, hey.. Hey kitten. Shh... It's okay." He soothes me down as he ran his fingers against the side of my face.

"Taehyung.." I called out for him again and I pushed myself towards his lap and sat there. His arms wound up tightly against me and repeatedly kissed my hair.

Taehyung's here. He's back.

"What's wrong? What's wrong babe?" His voice calms me down as the fact that he's here silenced all my fears and troubles.

"I-I thought something happened to you. Y-You were gone. I-I'm sorry." I whined and cried again. He lifted my face and made me look at him. His face looks so peaceful. It's everything I need right now. It's everything I'll ever need.

"I'm here babe. See? I'm okay. I'm fine. I'm here." He assured me and planted a kiss on my forehead. I held my hand out to touch his chest up to his shoulders then his face. I want to make sure he's really here.

"W-where were you?" My voice was silent as my eyes follow the movement of my hands. He was just staring at me, studying my reactions.

"It doesn't matter, okay? I'm here now." He breathe out slowly. My hands went down his arms to gather his hands. I kiss both his knuckles tenderly as if a silent plea for him to stay.

"I don't want you to go. Don't leave, okay?" I looked down, feeling all vulnerable. I fiddled with his fingers and avoided his eyes at all costs. "I.. I won't know what to do if you leave me. So stay, please."

A long silence passed but he remained silent. I bit my lip as I become nervous. What if he's actually planning on leaving already? Going with the shadow?

"Tae?" I murmured, still not looking up. "C'mon, say something."

"I love you."

My movements stopped, my heart stopped for a second or two and my body froze. I looked up at him to see him just staring at me. As if he's in a trance.

"W-What?" I asked. It was now his turn to look down. "You.. You love me?" He didn't dare to look up at me as my smile began growing.

"The thing is," he breathe out a sigh and leaned his head on the wall with his eyes closed. "I had a feeling this would happen. When I first saw you, I knew it already and when I talked to you and became your friend, I wanted to be more. So much more. I-If you think this is a mistake, I completely understand because hell. I'm a ghost, you.. You are alive. But whatever you think, that won't change what I feel. I'm sorry."

"Do you wanna hear something funny?" I asked. I could tell that he would roll his eyes at me right now if it wasn't for the silence of my tone. He peeked an eye at me and nodded. I let out a light laugh and leaned on his chest to hide my face. "I knew about it too. I felt it the moment I heard you at that cemetery."

His relieved sigh never goes unnoticed by me. His arms cuddled me closer to his chest as I lay my head atop his shoulders and his in my hair. "We both knew. But neither said anything."

"I guess we're just scared to fuck up everything." He nodded in agreement as he traced lazy circles on my back. "Would you want me to say it now?"

"Yes, kitten. Yes, please." He muttered. I broke our hug and placed my forehead on top of his. His gentle eyes were on mine, making me feel nothing but adoration and love.

"I love you." Gently, I let the words roll out my lips. His eyes closed upon hearing me say it, lips tugging up in a wide boxy smile. Those three words give us relief, I could tell. It actually felt good to say them after trying to hold it up for so long. His mouth curved up and his eyes began to slowly disappear from smiling too wide.

"I love you." He murmured, our lips began touching due to our close proximity. My heart fluttered with the way he said it. He wasn't doubtful. He's certain. He wasn't afraid. He sounded so brave.

"It actually sounds better than I imagined." I giggled softly and threaded my fingers in his locks. Slowly, I dipped my head downwards to let our lips meet.

It seems like it's my first time kissing him. My first time kissing anyone. The butterlies in my tummy doesn't calm down, instead, they flutter sending sharp beats to my heart. His hand went to cup my lower back and pressed me harder to him as the other massages the side of my neck. I let out a soft moan when I felt him bite my lower lip and tugs it before releasing it.

"Taehyung?" I called out to him when we broke apart. He hums in response, his eyes glowing. "Stay forever."

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3RD PERSON'S POV

"He's moving, Doctor." Namjoon informed him. Namjoom can never explain how Seokjin's demeanor lights up when he saw him move. Yes, it was just a small rise of his pinkie but it's more than enough.

He even cancelled his meeting with his artists to go to see him.

"Namjoon? We're getting there, aren't we?" Seokjin asked the nurse and he nodded with a smile.

He's getting there. He's going to be just fine.

A/N: UPDATE BC IT'S MR. WORLWIDE HANDSOME'S BIRTHDAY! Happy Birthday to our fake maknae, Seokjinnie!

Y'all need sum blessings from his face.