My Naughty Lover ✔️

Chapter 98

Finally, after the stupid detentions, I head home.

"Woof!Woof!"

"Hello, beast." I greet Alpha as soon as I close the door.

"Wooof!" he keeps on barking as he jumps up and down.

"Yeah yeah, I'm happy to see you too." I pat the dog who licks me continuously. He is kind of cute, I admit.

The house is quiet which means that Zac is not here yet. I enter his room, he is not there. I look around and then finally I sit on his bed.
Why would he lie to me? Was he the one being unfaithful? How did Tina die then? Questions are filled inside my head and I don't know how to react. Again, I see his black journal on the desk, I have the urge to open that and read everything but I cannot muster the courage to do so. Why? you ask. Because, I'm afraid. I'm so damn, afraid. What if he is lying to me? No! He won't do that ever! I completely trust him.

I find myself walking towards the small desk and my hands automatically hold the journal and when I open it, with my heart racing with both curiosity and fear, I see a familiar picture. A picture of Zac and a girl who ressembles me. Immediately, my mind corrects me, telling me that it's Tina. I hold the picture in my hand as I analyse it. I remember seeing a picture like this at Zac's place when I was searching through his drawer but the picture was not clear. Why does he still keep this picture though? And the fact that he was looking at that picture recently boils my heart. Obviously he was looking at it or why else would it be in kept in the first page of his journal.

A picture of them smilling like crazy and I notice how Zac seems happy with her.. How come she ressembles me? Do we have some sort of connections together?? I look at the dead girl's smilling face. She does not have dimples like me. What is wrong with me? Why am I comparing myself to her? I look at Zac who has a very big smile on his face. He looks so happy and so in love. Then I find myself wondering if he ever smiled like that with me. I immediately realise the negative answer. Does he still love her? I feel myself breaking.. If he hasn't move on, then why did he lead me on all this while?
I'm not jealous or anything as such because the girl was his past but what if he hasn't moved from his past? Oh Zac... I really hope you love me...

I put the picture back and I head in my room. I take my own diary where I start writing.

Dear Diary, I don't know how to feel. Today, Liam told me something which is bothering me. He said that Tina and Zac was arguing because of Zac being unfaithful but Zac told me that Tina was the one cheating... I cannot understand who is saying the truth. I trust Zac completely but what if he doesn't love me? I mean, I just went in his room where I stumbled across a picture of him and his ex inside his journal which he writes daily. Does that mean that he still loves her? I mean, I understand that he cannot forget her but if he still loves her then why did he lead me on? I am falling in love completely with him. I am getting used to living with him. I was even thinking of telling him about my past because I trust him but what if he isn't serious about me? He lied to me a few times now but I immediately forgave him but what if he is still lying to me? I know he is hiding something from me though.. Oh god... Please don't take Zac away from me, he is my last hope. In my life, I have never had the support from anyone. I was constantly being abused at home. My parents were torturing me and Steve... he is my nightmare. Nobody knows what his son was doing to me. Yes! He has a son which I never mentionned. I cannot even write his name because I feel myself trembling... Soon, we will have a gala and I was very hype to go with Zac but now I'm having a bad feeling about this. I know something terrible is about to happen.

After writing in my diary, I sit for a while as I try to divert my mind from silly thoughts. I scroll my phone to watch some videos and then after half an hour later, I head inside the bathroom where I strip off my clothes. I wish Zac was here with me... God, I'm head over heels in love with this guy. I enter the shower and I let the warm water run on my skin.

"Are you?" his familiar voice interrupts my thoughts.

"Zac!" I exclaim embarrasingly. "When did you come?" I ask, as I try not to blush.

Yes, this stupid has this kind of effect on me! Moreover I cannot believe I said that loudly. Well done, Scarlette.

"Just now, to take a shower. Guess we will take one together, then." he smiles at me as he closes the door behind him. I gulp hard thinking about wild things inside my head. What is wrong with me?? I immediately shake my head off from all these sexuals thoughts. I crave for him god damn it. All my negative thoughts about earlier vanish at once and I look at him who is taking off all his clothes too. Why is he so hot? I find myself getting excited.

"I can see that you totally want me right now." he smirks as he enters the shower cabin.

"I do.." I say.