never ever had I thought

Chapter 34

I'm so lost in the dance, that I don't notice we get a fourth member. One who knows the dance almost even better than us. Lauren. Of course she's a dancer and she sure looks better than us. In the end we have a whole audience. I've never danced in front of more people than our dance team, which consisted of 9 girls, I feel powerful, but also a little sick.

The song ends and so does our dance. Lauren approaches, but I'm looking for someone else. I find him staring right back at me, but like he's seeing something totally different.

I take the rest of his beer, but I don't think he minds.

''You dance'' he says.

I shrug. I don't want to talk about me. ''Are you drunk?'' I ask. his eyes looks all wild.

''No. Just happy to see you'' He hugs the life out of me. He doesn't sound drunk.

''We literally saw each other 4 minutes ago Shawn'' But I don't let go, just enjoy his familiar scent. Just the fact that his scent is starting to get familiar is unbelievable to me.

Later that night, Maddie, Ali, Shawn and I are playing beer pong. Me and Shawn against them. Or lovers vs losers I heard Ali whisper. I don't know what we are, definitely not lovers, but one thing is sure. We're kicking ass at this game. So much that we ended up drinking out of our own cups, because of thirst.

Lauren and Matt approaches us after another successful game.

''It's getting quite boring. Last round'' Shawn says, probably because I'm the one hitting all the cups.

Matt, glad to finally get some time with Lauren says ''Let's spice the game up a bit''. I look at Shawn, excited for the new rules. But I get nervous as soon I see his expression. He's doesn't look like he wants to play the game with the new rules and to be honest I feel a little disappointed. 

He shoots Matt a look, I can't quite understand and then say ''Fine'' and to me ''We'll take the rules as we go. Just focus on winning''. I nod. I get the ball in the cup on my first try and Shawn gives me a high-five. Matt gives Laur a little more than that. His tongue is down her throat and hers down his. I look at Shawn ''Is that the new rules?''. He doesn't look at me, just nods. If we miss a cup, we kiss. 

I would call it a win-win situation, if we don't miss we're closer to winning, we miss we kiss. If it wasn't for all the people standing around us. I've never kissed anyone in public before, I've actually only kissed two people in my life and one was Shawn. There's no way I'm missing a ball or Matt and Lauren getting one in, I'm not showing this many people how terrible I probably am at making out. I have a feeling Matt missed his shot on purpose, and they're kissing again.

And then we only have one cup left to hit. We've made it this far, we can do the last one. It's Shawns turn. He throws the yellow ball and misses the cup by a inch. 

''It must be the vodka'' he says. Did he get that much? I have seen him with the same beer for hours. ''Kiss, kiss, kiss...'' I hear Alison and Maddie and soon everyone else is chanting along. Shawn grabs me around my waist, and I lean into him and then I feel my stomach turn. Like everything in it wanting out, I have to puke.