never ever had I thought

Chapter 35

The kiss didn't happen. What happened was Shawn holding my hair while I puked in the toilet for a whole 10 minutes.

''I'm sorry'' I say when I'm done, my eyes watering.

''About what?''

I lean back against the wall feeling a lot better. I'm sorry about having to puke when you were about to kiss me, I don't know if it was the pressure or the alcohol making me puke. Maybe both.

''For making you watch me puke'' I say. It's true, last time I saw someone puke, I puked myself.

''You didn't make me do anything. Are you feeling better?''

Ali and Maddie knocks and open the door. ''We got everyone out except Lauren and Matt. They're on the couch''

Shawn looks disgusted, but his friendly tone not changed the least 

''What exactly are they doing on my couch?''

Maddie takes a step backward so she gets a view of it ''I don't think you wanna know''

''It's okay, go check on them'' I say knowing I'm the one holding him from going out and save his precious couch.

He looks parted ''You sure I can't do anything? A glass of water?''

''I'm fine Shawn''. He nods and walks out.

Maddie takes Shawn's place ''That was some bad timing for puking''

''You and Shawn's first kiss shouldn't be at a party tho'' Ali argues. I keep quiet.

''Unless it's not your first? Tell us'' Maddie figures.

''More like third, but not now. I think I should head home. Are you guys here tomorrow?'' I try to stand, and succeed with the help of Alison. ''We're on the evening flight home tomorrow, so we have all day to hear about it'' Maddie assures me.

''It's safe now'' I hear Shawn calling from the living room.

''I was thinking you could crash in the guestroom'' Shawn tells Ali and Maddie. They nod and seize themselves down the corridor.

''I'm sorry I ruined the party'' I feel a need to cry, but get a hold on myself. A breakdown wont make things better.

''Tonight was the most fun I've had since my 18th birthday party and stop apologizing Jess''

''Sorry. Ups, I'm sorry. Okay I'm stopping now'' I pick up my phone from my back pocket. ''I should probably call a cap''.

''It's 2 AM, take my bed, I'll drive you home in the morning''

A tear escape my eye ''Really? Where're you gonna sleep then?''

''I was thinking the couch, but now I'm so sure anymore. Is it cool if I take the armchair in my room?''

Another tear escaped and this time Shawn sees it. He hugs me and I think to myself that I wouldn't mind if he slept in the bed besides me.

We turn the lights off and head to the room. I didn't bring anything to sleep in, so I just take off my cardigan and sit on the bed. ''Are you sure you don't want the bed?''

''Stop being so nice, you're not canadian'' he jokes.

''Americans can be nice when they want to. I don't even think being mad is in your blood''

He sets an alarm on his phone ''I see what you did there''

I lay down on top the covers. It's quiet for a while.

''Thank you for everything'' I say. I feel him smiling.

''Are you tired?'' Shawn aks.

''No. You?'' I answer.

''Do you wanna watch a movie?'' he asks.

I say yes and he gets his macbook from the desk, lay down on the bed besides me and place the computer in between us. 

We fall asleep like that. I haven't slept that good in a very long time.

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