never ever had I thought

Chapter 14

At some point, I must have let Shawn's hand go. I am so tired of all the running, I'm not in good shape. I call on Blake and he turns to me. We greet him, shoulder to shoulder. No, more like my shoulder to his arm. He's so tall. 

''Why did you leave dad?'' I ask Blake. 

''He said you're not grounded anymore''. I look at Shawn, he's just listening to our conversation. ''What do you mean B''. 

''If you're not grounded you can go on adventures and I can't''. he looks so sad. I give him a hug and thank Shawn silently over Blakes' shoulder.

''If you want to see the bus inside just let me know'' Shawn says to Blake on our way inside to find dad. Blake's reaction is priceless. He goes from silent and sad till when you drink eight cups of coffee in a row. He's jumping around, giving all the people who pass us high fives.

When we return with Blake, he doesn't even look mad. He's just relieved. He begins to thank me, but I quickly stop him. 

''Dad, I didn't find him. Shawn did''. I don't think my dad had noticed Shawn also was in the room, although I would find him a little hard to miss. Plus he is standing like an inch from me. If I breathe really deep, our arms will touch. I'm surprisingly tempted to do it. The silence is growing awkward, and then I remember my dad's good news. 

''So Dad, isn't there something you were going to tell me?''.

''Yes, that's right. I can't ground you anymore, it doesn't really seem fair. It's your first time abroad you should go see the town''. My dad wouldn't say that. Who convinced him to un-ground me? 

''Alone? Go see the town alone?''. My dad sends Shawn a weird look. 

''Not alone. I'll send someone with you when you leave the hotel. You're free to go back.'' I take a step towards him. 

''Now?'' But I really don't wanna go back. Shawn just said he's not doing anything. I turn to Blake who is now secretly looking at Shawn's biceps. What the hell did Maddie say about those? And like Shawn read my mind he says 

''Well, I could give you a tour in my bus. I know Blake really wants to see it''. He looks at my dad for permission and of course he gets it. Blake has taken his eyes from Shawn's biceps and we're moving towards the bus again. Blake keeps telling us to move faster, but I don't hear him because a much likely theory comes to my mind. 

''Shawn?''. 

He looks at me biting his lip. Breath Jess. Breath. 

''Did you somehow know I wasn't grounded anymore?''. He looks everywhere, but me. I give him a careful push with my shoulder and a very judging look. Why can he do anything, just because he's a celebrity? 

''Shawn! Why did you do that? If I'm not grounded I'm not supposed to be on set'' with you I almost added. 

''I didn't think of it like that, just that it may be funnier to hang out in town and not here or the park''. he scratches his neck. Is he nervous? Blake is holding the heavy door for us, but we're not moving. 

''Hang out in town?'' I ask him. 

''Yeah, if you want to''. 

I nod. I almost ask him if he has time for that. I saw a tiny bit of his calendar when I took a call from my dad on his phone. Every single hour was covered in different colors. Meaning meetings, set, traveling and so on... And the music video is almost ready to start shooting. 

''Come on guys. I...Can't...Hold...It...''. We hurry through the door, towards the bus. Shawn grabs a key from his inner jacket pocket. I realize I expected maybe like a fingerprint to open the bus or the eye. Wow, when did I get so modern. Now I have absolutely no idea what to expect from the inside. Is it modern marble? Don't think that's Shawn's style. All dark wood? Maybe. Is there bunk beds or a bed just for Shawn? Now I'm just as excited as Blake to see it from the inside. I'm about to step into what is Shawn's second home.