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The Unwanted Discussion

*For those of you that do not know I lost a friend in tragic fashion in high school so when someone came to me with a similar situation I tried my hardest to write something to help you or whoever it could impact the best I could PLEASE CHECK ON YOUR STRONG FRIENDS!*

My judgement is clouded at the moment and yes it hurts like Hell
But nothing hurts worse than living in this life of sin without my rider my homie my friend
Nothing hurts worse than living in this everyday Hell
Emotions unexplainable I know
Answers unattainable fa sho'
I won't bug you for details

I do want to say parting words that were never spoken
I miss you
There's no rhyme for that
those are three words that are raw and fact
I love you
Once again no rhyme needed just raw emotion
You're friendship, your power to overcome, your courage has always been my religion
has always been my devotion to keep going
because I realize now I never had it that bad and I'm complaining about tomorrow
yet I blissfully no scratch that have ignorantly ignored that you drown in sorrow that you wallow in despair that you crave and yearn for a happiness that's currently not there
You're a shell of your former self and oddly enough that's a compliment in this instance
You've been through so many battles and continue to fight like the weight of the world is on your shoulders
like you HAVE to carry 20,000 boulders
like you aren't somebodies AC that keeps them cool in the hot days of summer
like you aren't the damn reason why some are still fighters but by nature are runners
The system gets bucked trying to match your courage
and future blessings all 1764 plus more you deserve them all
I've missed one phone call I've almost missed my own voice message I can't afford to lose another anytime your down bad just blow my line like the wind in the fall