𝐄𝐂𝐋𝐈𝐏𝐒𝐄 | jaemin nct

25

*Please listen to the song above. Itll make the atmosphere waaay better ;). Pleaseee*

"I found you in sad songs"

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"Jaemin-ah..." I didnt realize I was smiling like a lunatic while I said,"Thank you so much from running from who ever was chasing you and end up jumping into my room...." I placed my hand on my mouth, overwhelmed by emotions.

"Nope." He sighed, "Em, you found me."

He walked towards me placing my head on his chest.
I smiled and he whispered,"Em..."

"Hmm?"

"Even when I go away, remember wherever you are I'm there with you" his voice cracked as he said,"always with you..."

"Why would you say that?" We broke our hug and I moved back to look into his eyes.

He did not reply, just glanced at the silver moonlight and then locked his eyes with mine, a broken smile on his lips.

His eyes lost his glow, they were flickering, flickering with tears....

"I cant thank you enough for the memories...but"

"You..."I did not need to say anything else but he closed his eyes and let out  a heavy sigh.

The bitter wind which felt ecstatic moments ago was now making me numb, it felt like a thousand daggers twisting inside me.

I was bereft of words

I looked away, not believing where we had come.

"And, you'll find me again, Em." He bit his lower lip, shivering, holding back tears.

"No Jaemin...this makes no sense..." I was quivering at this point, grabbing his wrist.

"You are not going away..are you?" The thoughts were enough to break me apart.

He did not answer, just closed his eyes.

I'm scared you'll go away from me, you'll stop shining your light on me

"But...I..." I stuttered," I don't know what to do without you.." I did not understand, I could not comprehend what just happened.

This was supposed to be our moment, when we would laugh and say silly things, basking under the serene moonlight but....

This was a nightmare.

"JAEMIN!" I yelled, on the verge of breaking apart.

I would imagine now, he would hug me tight and say it was a prank, or he would come back, running back to me, like every other night.

"I'm sorry, Em...you are happy now.." He looked away and flinched. I realized I was clenching onto his wrist, but somehow I felt he can't fade away if I hold onto him.

I could feel his warmth, and still would, in the winter, the summer, all through the four seasons, under the moonlight which paints everything pearl-blue .

"Em...dont cry...you are crushing me, you are making it harder.." He walked towards me, softly touching my flushed cheek, so softly as if he was scared, that I would break down right now.

"What do you mean?" I enveloped his palm with mine,"It doenst make sense, what...."

He knelt down, facing me, and now I could feel his quivering breath on my face, his warm breath against the winter wind.

I closed my eyes, scared, chanting a stupid prayer in my mind,"Dont go...Dont go..."

"Dont cry, you silly girl, I'll come back...You'll find me...like you do everytime, after ten years, twenty, like you did when we were children" His voice was a melody, a sad song, which was choking me.

My eyes darted open, hearing those words,"Like you did when we were children..."

"You.."

He closed the distance between us, his lips pressing on mine, trembling and shaking. He was trying to be strong for me, but he was breaking down, shattering, like me.

He inhaled sharply, gently kissing me then crying again. His warm lips against mine, his short breath, caressing me, was making me feel euphoric, as if he wont go away.

I could feel his tears touching my cheek and it was breaking me down. I held his jaw, kissing him again, as hard as I could, as if that would not let him go. As if a single kiss would seal our lives together, as if it would make him stay.

"Em...I love you, I love you so much..." he whispered,

"but, you dont need me..."

"Stop, Jaemin... stop..."

"So I'll go..." he lips let go of mine and he smiled.

>>to be continued...