Them (BTS au)

Chapter 96

LillyRose's POV

   Hyun-jin, Jin, Namjoon, and I are sitting together at the lunch table. 

"Hey, um...has anyone seen Jimin lately?  He hasn't been here for a week, and I'm worried about him."  I say.

"Are things between you guys better now?"  Hyun-jin questions.  "No.  I know things are weird now, but I still care about Jimin as a person."

"You're right to be worried.  It isn't like Jimin to miss school for a week."  Namjoon says.

"I'm gonna go find him as soon as school's out."  I say, determined.

.....

"Hey, um, Mrs. Park.  Do you know where Jimin is?  He hasn't been to school in a week."  I say through the phone.

"He hasn't?"  "No ma'am.  I'm worried about him."  "I have no clue.  I'm sorry, Lilly, but I have to get back to my shift."  "Yes ma'am.  Thanks anyway."  "You're welcome.  Thanks for being concerned about my son." 

"It's no problem.  Bye, Mrs. Park."  "Oh, Lilly.  You can still call me eomma,"  W-What?  "Bye now."  She hangs up the phone.

Time to look for Jimin.

.....

I'm aimlessly looking for him at the park.  I haven't seen any signs of him yet.  Where could he be?

I check all the park benches.  Nope.  He's not sitting on any of them.

.....

"Tae, is Jimin with you, by any chance?"  "No.  I'm worried about him, though.  He's been M.I.A.  This is so unlike him."  "I'm glad I'm not the only one that noticed.  I'm looking for him.  Thanks anyway, Tae."  "You're welcome.  I hope you find him."  We say our goodbyes before hanging up.

.....

I knock on the door.  A minute later, Min-seo opens the door.  "Oh, hey, Lilly."  She smiles.

"Hey, Min-seo.  Is Jimin here?"  "Um, I actually don't know.  I haven't seen him lately."  "Can I come in?"  "Sure, but I'm about to head out."  "Thanks."

She walks out the door after I enter, shutting it behind her.  I walk up the stairs and tread to Jimin's door.

I knock on the door.  No answer.  I knock on it two more times, but to no avail.

I twist the knob.  It's locked.

I step back.  "Sorry for this, Mrs. Park."  I kick the door with all my might, busting it open.

There, Jimin sits, on the floor, looking down, his back against the wall, his knees to his chest, his arms clinging around them.  There's a knife a few inches away from him.

"Jimin?"  His head snaps in my direction, looking at me.  "L-Lilly?"

I hurry to kneel beside him, my hands on his arms.  "Oh my God, Jimin, are you ok?"  He looks back down, not saying a word.

"Did you cut yourself?"  "No, but I thought about it."  He says nonchalantly, yet solemnly.

He smells like he hasn't taken a shower in a few days.  His hair is unruly.  His stomach growls, the type of growl that tells you you haven't eaten in a li'l while.

"Jimin...have you not come out of your room?"  I say in horror, my eyes getting big.  "No."

"Jimin, I...  Get up.  Please."  He's worrying me.  I'm about to cry.  I hate seeing Jimin like this.

"Go away, Lilly.  I don't want you to see me like this.  No one should see me like this.  Just let me rot in this room."

"Jimin...You've been missing school, you haven't eaten, you haven't showered.  What's going on?  This isn't you."

He looks at one of my hands, then looks me in my eyes.  "The me that you knew is gone.  That me had you.  Without you, I am nothing.  I'm depressed, Lilly."

"Jimin, I...I'm so sorry."  A tear starts making its way down my cheek.

"And don't touch me."  He says with some aggression.  He tries to shake my hands off, but I'm not going down without a fight.  My hands don't budge.

I hug him as I cry and sob.  "Jimin, I'm so sorry.  I'm so, so, so sorry,"

He begins to cry with me, sniffling.  "I-I promise I'll stay with you.  I'll miss school and look after you.  I'll t-take care of you.  I'll do it as long as it takes."

"It's been so hard without you, Lilly.  I-I don't know what to do anymore.  I don't feel like living."