EVAK/HENJEI ONE SHOTS

[8] d o n t l e a v e

TARJEI POV
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"The thing is... I'm moving. Far." Henrik said, disappointment clear in his tone as he didn't have the guts to look me in the eye and tell me. He stared down at his hands, his own fingers intertwined as the rested in his lap.

I couldn't bear to look up at him either, so I couldn't blame him. "How far?" I asked a bit hesitantly, unsure of if I even wanted to know.

"Out of Oslo." He said quietly, and for a minute, that didn't sound too bad- that was, until he continued. "Out of Norway."

"Out of Norway?" I exaggerated his words, darting my eyes at him finally and furrowing my eyebrows. "Henrik- why? It's your home, though. Everyone's here-"

He nodded, "I know, but Lea's work is out there and I have to go where she goes. I don't want to, but that's how these relationships work."

"No, they don't 'work like that'. Just tell her you don't want to move out of Oslo, I'm sure she'll understand. I live alone- I have guest rooms, you could stay with me." I blurted out eagerly, not wanting to seem desperate but at this point I really was. I couldn't lose Henrik, even thought I kept saying I wanted him to stop what games he was playing- I still needed him here, with me.

He stared at me as if contemplating on the offer. It seemed like he wanted to take it, but something was holding me back- and that only made me more frustrated and impatient.

Not knowing how else to convince him, I did the only thing I could think of. Placing on hand behind his neck to pull his face closer to mine, I anxiously pressed my lips against his using a small amount of force to show how much I really wanted him to stay.

Feeling a bit relieved when he kissed back, I deepened the kiss, entangling my fingers in his blonde locks and being a bit more aggressive in my actions. "Don't leave." I mumbled against his lips.

He pulled back slightly, letting out a small sigh and looking down. I knew what that meant just by his expression, causing me to tense and reset to my original posture.

"I'll visit." He said impassively, causing me to only become more upset. Why did he always have to hide his emotions?

I felt there was no use in fighting anymore, it was obvious he cared more for Lea than I, and whatever I was trying to accomplish here was pretty much hopeless at this point. My eyes began to well up with tears at the thought of Henrik being gone, far away from me, us never seeing each other again and probably not even keeping in contact.

I blinked hard as I tried to make the waterworks disappear before they slipped from my eyes. I didn't want him to see me cry. I thought about my next words for a moment before speaking, "When are you leaving?"

"Next week."

Next week?! Why such a late notice?! I really was going to have no time to cherish with him, did I?

My heart dropped at those two, simple words that meant so much. He was gone- he was leaving me. I wasn't good enough, I'll never be good enough to make him stay.

I stayed quiet, really not knowing how or wanting to respond to anything he was saying. As stupid as it was, I was heartbroken. This really was it, wasn't it? I'd waited for him this long, and he's made the decision. Lea was the decision.