Heart of Gold

Chapter 12

It's been two week since the almost kiss and me embarrassing myself. I avoided him like I was a ninja if he was walking down the hall and I saw him first I dodged in room and hid until the coast was clear. In the house was harder. If he was coming into the kitchen I was going upstairs, if I was in the living room watching the television I was doing a fast sandwich and was back upstairs hiding in shame. And this plan worked for me but not for him.

He had tried to talk but I had dodged and ran for the hills like the coward I was. I spent a lot of time in the back house with Trish leaving him with the main house to do as he wished. I came back late when I thought he was asleep with Mazey asleep in one hand and creeping up the stairs. I put her in her pajamas and left her room door open and went to my room but it wasn't empty. When I flipped on the switch I nearly pissed my pants.

"Why are you in my room?" I asked. He said nothing he just looked at me. "I'm going to get ready for bed could you please leave." I didn't sound as powerful as I should have.

"Why have you been avoiding me?" He asked at last.

"I'm not avoiding you." I tried to lie.

"Bullshit. In the halls at work dodging into supply closets until I pass and running up the stair when I'm coming in the same room. And I'm to believe you're not avoiding me?" His voice dark deep and very sexy. I need to get my mind out of the gutters with Trish's.

"Look I've been busy." Shut up Kasey.

"Mhmm." He stood and walked over to me, the back of my knees hitting the bed.

"What are you doing?" My voice a whisper.

"Something I have wanted to do since I met you." He pulled me closed crushing me against his body. I didn't know what was happening then his lips the lips that I have shamelessly dreamt about claimed mine and I stood there unresponsive in shock and when he pressed harder I parted my lips and let him lead the song that we had been singing. I pulled him closer trying to absorb all of him. He ran his hands over my body and then he started reaching under my shirt and I pulled away.

I was panting my skin red and I looked at him he wanted more. I wanted more but I couldn't give him more. He stepped closer and I backed away the fire between us blazing ready to burn this house down. My lungs tight from oxygen depletion.

"I can't." I said when he came closer.

"I understand." He said and he kissed my forehead and left. I ripped my clothes away and jumped in a very cold shower and I laid in bed. But all I dreamt about was his kiss and if it had gone further I wouldn't be in my bed alone. I would be lying in afterglow. No I can't think like that. I don't like him like that. I closed my eyes and tried to push the kiss away but it flooded my dreams. When the clock alarmed I was more tired than when I fell asleep. I couldn't face him, I couldn't face anyone and if Trish saw me she'd go all Gold fingers again.

I turned the alarm off I didn't wake Mazey today we'd have an off day. I should face my fear or desire but I rather stay home and hide. When I knew he was gone I went downstairs and called the school telling them she was ill. I woke her at eight and gave her breakfast and left her to watch television.

"Why am I not going to school?" She asked.

"Because I'm hiding." I said.

"What are you hiding from?" She asked. "Is it a monster?" She asked.

"No Little Butterfly, I hiding from myself." I said.

"Okay. So am I hiding from myself too?" She asked.

"No." I answered.

"Then why am I hiding with you?" She asked.

"It's better to hide in numbers." I answered and she shook her head as if she understood but I think she was just very confused. The house phone rang and she ran and answered it.