Adopted by Shawn Mendes

Conflicted

It took me a week to shake my fever. It was a miserable week that took a turn. My manager had called me and asked if I could do some pop up shows again. I wasn't sure if I wanted to or not considering I had two kids now. Doing it with just Everley was a different story, but I don't know if I could handle trying to get two kids to fall asleep on a tour bus. It took hours for Everley, and was that really fair to them? Yeah it was my career and god I loved what I did, but I had a family now. My family. I told I'd get back to him, my mind was foggy from the fever and I didn't want to make any rash decisions in this head space.
Once the illness officially left my body I really started thinking about it. I mean it would be like being at home just in hotels and tour busses, staying in most of the day playing during sound check and then a concert at night. If I got the kids to warm up enough to someone on the crew or Andrew or something it would be so much easier getting them to naps and asleep. But I wasn't sure if they'd be comfortable, especially Ev who wasn't too fond of men. She knew Andrew and liked him enough but I needed someone they could really be comfortable around. Maybe I could bring someone? Someone they were already comfortable with? I wouldn't want to put someone in that position though, nannying my kids. I probably shouldn't do this. Just stay at home in the comfort zone. But my career.
I sat and thought. What about Laila? Laila loves the kids, traveling, and Ev is super comfortable around her. I mean she did call her to hang out while I was sick... why not?
I need to make some calls.