Divergent High

Chapter twenty three

Tris pov

"Move forward...

It's like my life is moving backwards.

Ella and Emma are dead.

Once I passed out and was taken to the hospital so we're the girls so that the doctors could check on any injuries because they were alone with those men for too long.

Apparently the doctors cleared them and they were allowed to be sent home.

A few hours later they died in Christina and Marlene's arms.

They were poisoned and the doctors didn't even realize. Those men poisoned my babies. When I found out my heart broke. I thought I was having a heart attack.

My emotions had enough that day with just losing the baby I was carrying but now I lost my two living children. My emotions were lost. I became numb. I felt like I should have been the one to die.

Why would Stacy do such a thing? Just because she wanted Tobias. How childish and evil can she be

Tobias and I walked in on the paramedics trying to help the girls but it was far too late.

I cried, I yelled, I broke things and I shut down.

The funeral was awful as most funerals are. Everyone wanted to give me their condolences and I just wasn't having it.

The only person I talk to is Tobias, when we do talk. We are both just kind of shut down at the moment. I don't even talk to my parents.

We moved out of our house because it was so big and reminded me of so many memories.

Tobias hasn't been working so it's just us locked in our apartment all the time. We never want to go out.

Today is the first time I've been outside in weeks" I say to my therapist.

All of that is what tris said to her therapist ^

Today I'm at therapy. I recently started with this lady. Tobias made me come because he said it would be good for me. He goes more then me, he likes it. It clears his mind. My mind is so dull I don't even know what clear looks like.

"So what steps do you and Tobias see yourselves taking now. Have your wedding? Do you want to try and have another baby" she ask me

"I want all of those things. I want them back. I'm not sure if Tobias and I will try for a baby any time soon. We're just not ready and we haven't had any sex lately" I tell her

"Our session is running out of time but I'm going to give you some homework." She says

"Fine" I say

"Have sex with your fiancé. Get intimate with each other. Bring love back into your relationship. What happened to you was traumatic but you don't have to let the past keep you locked up forever. Who knows this connection will spark you and Tobias to start planning your wedding again" she tells me and I look down and nod.
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Quick note: how old are my readers? Comment your age...

"Do you want to have sex" I blurt out as Tobias and I sit on our bed in our room, watching a movie.

He turns to me and grabs a hold of my hand.

"Not right now. Maybe another time" he says and I nod.

"Cool" I whisper and we focus our attention back to the screen.

Why would my therapist ever suggest we have sex? Of course he doesn't want to have sex with me, things are not how they used to be.

"I'm going to spend the night at Christina's" I say standing from my our bed and he looks at me annoyed.

"Now you're upset with me" he asks

"No. I just need a her. She's my best friend. Lately she's been giving me more attention then you" I say and he rolls his eyes as I put my shoes on, grab my purse and walk out.
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"He straight up said not right now. Like what is that" I say taking a sip of my wine as I ramble to Christina about my problems.

We sit on her couch with wine and ice cream. The two best things that I'm craving right now.

"Maybe his sex drive is off. I don't know tris but you two should really talk about where you stand. Things haven't been the best between you two, has it" she ask and I look down shaking my head no.

"No. It hasn't" I say

"Have you tried going to couples therapy" she ask me

"There's so much therapy. I don't think I can handle another lady telling me what I can and cannot do" I say and Christina grabs my hand.

"Listen I know things with you and Tobias will get better. Your world got flipped upside down. Just give each other time" She tells me and I nod.

Will walks over to Christina and kisses her head.

"Goodnight darling. See you in bed" he says and she giggles

"Goodnight" She says to him as he walks away

"Goodnight tris" he yells

"Goodnight" I say back.

"I'm going to head home. I should talk with Tobias" I tell Christina

"Just stay the night. You've been drinking" she tells me and I sigh

"Okay fine" I say getting comfy on her couch.

"Tris come to the guest room" Christina says to me laughing but I'm already asleep.

Short chapter but please tell me what you thought and any ideas you have

Sorry if I broke your hearts a little btw