Divergent High

Chapter thirty five

Tris pov

"How was the weekend away from the hospital" Christina asks me

"Please tell me you had dirty, dirty sex" she adds and I look down and laugh

"Actually we didn't. All we could think about is our sick son and when we did try to get it on, it wasn't really that romantic. I feel like we cried more then having sex" I explain to her and she hugs me

"I guess that's what happens when you get married and have a sick child" I say and she looks at me with sad eyes

"Things are going to get better. I know they will" she tells me and I give her a small smile

"I hope so" I say

"Mommy" Logan whines waking up.

Tobias is out with Will grabbing everyone coffees. We're back at the hospital after a weekend away at the shore. Christina and will came to visit.

"Hello sleepy head" I say going to his side

"Look who's here to visit, auntie Christina" I tell him and he smiles

"Hi kiddo, what's going on" Christina says

"I'm sick" Logan answers back

"But you will get better soon, the doctors are taking great care of you" she tells him and I smile and nod, but my inside is breaking down.

"Hon, they ran out of the coffee you liked so I just got you an iced coffee" Tobias says walking in but I run past him and head to the bathroom in Logan's hospital room.

I puke. I throw up everything I barely ate this morning. With all that is going on, I haven't been able to eat.

Tobias closes the bathroom door behind him and as I'm rinsing my mouth I turn to face him and he looks at me worried.

"What's going on" he asks me

"I don't know the smell of the coffee made me sick" I say and cross my arms over my chest.

"Do you want me to get a doctor" he ask and I shake my head no

"No. I know what's wrong with me. It's fine" I say closing my eyes and leaning against the bathroom wall

"Well are you planning on telling me" he asks annoyed

"Can we talk in private" I say

"We're pretty private now" he answers and I sigh

"I'm pregnant" I tell him

"I have to be at least a month a long" I add and sink to the floor.

"Tris when did you find this out" he says and I put my hands on my face

"This morning" I tell him and he sits next to me

"Tobias I don't want another baby" I whisper and he sighs

"Tris ple-..." he starts to say but I cut him off

"I'm serious Tobias. I can't handle anymore heart break" I say

"Then tell me what you're going to do about it" he says annoyed

"I should just get an abortion" I say and he groans

"Tris you can't do that" he tells me

"Why not" I say

"You're not going to take away our baby. Maybe this is our last chance to a healthy baby" he says putting a hand on my belly

"Tobias" I whisper

"I know you're scared and I know you're depressed with what has and is happening in our live but tris please. If you get an abortion, we will get a divorce" he tells me and a tear runs down my face.

"This is my body Tobias" I say

"I'm your husband" he yells

"I should have a say" he says bringing his voice back down

"Then it looks like we're getting a divorce because I'm not having this baby" I say getting up and walking out the bathroom.

"Tris wait" Tobias says after me but I just walk out of Logan's room.

"Watch him please" I hear Tobias tell Christina and Will as he chases after me.

"Tris" he says catching up to me, grabbing my hand and pulling me to him.

He holds my face and kisses me.

"I'm sorry. I don't want a divorce" he says

"I can't have this baby Tobias" I say as tears are now flooding my face

"But you can. I know you can" he tells me

"I'm scared" I whisper

"You're a great mother. You have always been. We always get the most shittiest situations but I know we can do this. I know we can make this work" he says

"Okay" I whisper looking down

He holds my waist and lets out a deep breath. He brings me into a hug and I just cry into him.

"I'm so sorry. How could I not want our baby" I whisper and he rubs my back

"It's okay. I love you so much. Everything will be okay" he gently says and he holds me as we walk back to Logan's room.

"Everything okay" Christina ask

"I'm pregnant" I blurt out and all eyes turn to me

"Our babies will be best friends" Christina says hugging me

"Congratulations" Will says and him and Tobias go off to the corner to talk

"Mommy is having a baby" I say sitting next to Logan on his bed

"Wow. I'm going to have a little brother and sister" Logan says slowly. He is so drained and tired

"But you will always be my baby, no matter what" I assure him, tackling his face with kisses

"I hope you have a girl and I hope she's not sick like me. I don't want anyone to be sick like me." He tells me and I kiss his head

"Of course baby. No one should ever be as sick as you are, not even you" I say

"When I die. Tell my little brother or sister I love them so much. They have the best mommy and daddy ever" Logan says and tears run down my face

"You're not going to die baby. You're just sick. You need to keep fighting okay. Fight strong like a super hero" I tell him

"I'm trying mommy but I'm so tired" he says and I stand up from his bed and turn away so he doesn't see the amount of sadness that is running through my face and all the tears.

"Hey buddy, daddy and Will are going to watch you now. Me and your mommy are going to take a walk" Christina tells him and she hugs me as we walk out of his room.

"I can't stop crying Chris. I can't. No matter what time of day it is, all I do is cry" I say

"Tris calm down" she says softly

"I don't want anymore of my babies to die" I say and she hugs me

"I'm so sorry tris" she says starting to cry herself and I sob.

"He has to get better" I say

"He will" she says and I shake my head no

"He won't" I say and she looks at me with sad eyes.

"I can take it from here" a man says and I recognize the voice so clearly.

"Hi-..." I say and Christina leaves

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